Slalom Angel

What Had Caused?

2011-06-14T14:01:00.000+08:00

When we are living on Earth, it is truly like a dream.

While we are interacting with human, it is like studying a topic. Studying through friendships and relationships. Things that the other parties done, is it worth a consideration?

What had caused their behaviours to change dramatically?

What had caused their negative emotions to suffice?

What had caused them to fight, quarrel and argue?

What had caused betrayal amongst themselves?

Perhaps, we should really consider much much more...

I Love You My Dearest One

2011-06-13T11:23:00.003+08:00

Well, am I so attached to you, my Dearest One.

I thought I would not have one,

Yet you enter my life.

Is it real or dream?

Only we ourselves know.

Are we destined to be together?

Only time will tell.

Who am I?

It does not matter anymore.

The present moment with you,

Is more important than anything.

The moment spent,

Happy or sadden,

Angry or tranquil,

We have gone through,

or we have not.

Tell me you love me,

Tell me you love me.

I will love you too,

I will love you too.

Even if I can't meet you,

You are always in my heart.

Have you moved my heart?

Have I moved you to tears?

From time to time you have helped me.

From time to time you have taught me.

I am so appreciate with you by my side.

I do really wish with all my heart,

You will be happy always.

I do really want you to be well,

Overall being.

We talk for hours,

We walk for hours,

We daze for moments,

We gaze for moments.

I do remember,

Many moments we have.

Although we quarrel,

I realize,

You are important to me.

So, am I?

I have cried for you.

Well, do you?

If I have touched you with my words,

My time is well spent, my dear.

I am grateful for having you.

Truly,

I am.

May we unite.

May we meet.

Even till next life, or next next life,

More ever.

I wish that you are well and happy,

Because with you by my side,

I am.

You have opened my heart.

You have opened my eyes.

You have broadened my mind.

You may have not realize,

Because you can't see,

What is going on,

Deep inside my heart.

The Truest feeling,

My Dearest One.

You are my destiny.

I know with all my heart.

You may have afraid,

You may have worried,

You may have disbelieved,

You may have disheartened,

You may have disliked me.

Which all are impermanent.

My feelings for you,

They are never ending.

So much more,

Yet I cannot finish,

In this little poem of mine.

All I can say,

I love you, My Dearest One.

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May all my readers and all other beings be well and happy, always.

I Started Working At Age of 13

2011-03-01T14:50:00.001+08:00

I learned to help out around the house while I was 11 - 12 years old or even younger. Thanks to my sisters and mum, I was able to cope well. I would not have accomplished so much without them.

Started to cook almost everyday throughout Pri 6 & Sec 1. Sometimes, we complained about it due to restlessness and laziness, still we persevered. Sometimes, our cooking were bad. We managed to survive without getting the kitchen charred.

Me and my sister would take turn to cook. Changing diapers, bathing our younger siblings, taking them out to play, teaching them ABC, guiding them to walk, toilet training, bring them back and forth to school, etc... We enjoyed doing and had alot of fun. Plus, we managed to finish our homework, with occasions of forgetfulness. Amazing right?

Our parents were busy with their problems and works. We were too young to understand.

One day, mum told me to start work at a well-known uniform stall during school holidays. I was only 13 years old. Good experience. I enjoyed working there. Learnt how to organise clothes into different categories and visited many different schools. I felt a pang of sadness when leaving because the people there were hospitable. Most of the customers were parents.

Then, money earned was to pay school fees and help the household. I agreed.

I was almost 14. My mum brought me for an interview at MacDonald's Restaurant near our house then. I was unsure about what were ahead of me. So I followed my mum's suggestion. I worked at the restaurant for more than 2 years. Stopped working when I was to take my 'O' Levels.

Many incidents had happened. I will touch on them later on.

I thought I should have shared with my parents. I was unsure then because they were all so busy with their own things... Afraid I might upset them.

Sometimes, I wish to become the highly positive person I used to be.

We can't turn back the time. So, I will do with what I have now, step by step. I'm touching my past, because I don't mind about them anymore. It's time to share with others. Which I think it's good to let them know they are not alone, suffering and struggling. Shall continue again.

May all be happy :)

I'm a Bad Girl After All

2011-02-25T00:31:00.013+08:00

I felt that I am a bad girl after all.

After so many times of telling myself,

To forgive myself due to my ignorance in the past.

I'm a bad girl after all.

I was always fearful. I have phobias.

Due to fear, I lied.

Due to pressure, I lied.

And then I shunned.

I was not honest only learning when I grew.

I am always depressive.

With many mood swings.

I'd not been punctual.

I'd been selfish.

I'd been jealous.

I'd been arrogant.

I'm full of wrath.

I always control.

I'd been lusty.

I'd gone overboard.

I'd been greedy.

I'd been careless.

I'd been lazy.

I'm a flirt.

I'm a bitch.

Who will like me?

I try not to show.

And I hid truth.

I hated myself sometimes.

Yet, I tried to love others.

I still hate myself.

Then I fear.

I feared when people love me.

Because I do not know what exactly is love.

Who had taught me what is love?

Because my parents were not loved.

I blamed my parents.

Yet I must forgive them.

They'd went through so much.

Ahead were lessons to learn.

Since I was not taught with care.

It is my responsibility now.

I'm a bad girl after all.

Even so many I've read.

When will I change?

Even if done so many things,

When will I change?

I wish for further realization.

I'm a bad girl after all.

Will you forgive me?

And will I?

All because I fear.

All because I grudge.

All because I blame.

All because I hate.

I'm a Bad Girl After All.

I wish to be a Good Girl After All.

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I guess most of us who are aiming to become a better person will have all these thoughts, is it true? This is to encourage us to face all our negative traits.

I think this is the very first step towards understanding. Only when we open up to see ourselves, we shall be able to see why some people are behaving like how they are.

Either start to understand others first or start to understand yourself first.

There are still many who won't understand, so that's why we still must not reveal too much on our past or present negative traits. Especially when come to job interview or relationship. Because other parties might fear and that's what we might fear. They might not be as open minded as others.

Challenging yet our responsibilities, all due to our ignorance.

May all the best be with you.

Choosing Path

2011-02-23T23:48:00.002+08:00

What happen to my MSN? It seems to have become a spamming tool for others. So I seldom get online. That time I told a friend I have not been online for one month its actually referring to MSN. While I'm still quite active with FaceBook and Gmail especially while on my mobile. I wonder whether my friend will thought I am lying since online also means go on to internet. -.-'''

Next time, I must be more specific.

I seems to be feeling rather down for the past 2 months. Deep in my heart I know I have to pass this stage. Although may not be handling the emotions well enough, yet I've reached a conclusion on the new phase of my life. This time I know I want it.

I used jump into any career I came upon in order to survive the ordeal. Just for the sake of money to keep my body goes on. In the end I'm still a survivor having to go through some of the crisis in life. Maybe I could have done better.

While, everyone also will have to go through this stage before they started to realise what is life for them, right?

When I got out from Poly, I was aimless until I met skating. Holding full-time jobs some times, and trained on skating with the rest of spare time I have. I neglected alot of many other things. I know there are alot people who are going through this kind of life too. Deep in my heart, skating will not be a forever thing till I'm old.

I went on to coach after 2 years plus as Slalom competitor. Yes. I gave up training on the sports due to pains I hardly can endure anymore which was incurable till now. My parents objected about my training when I just started, yet as stubborn as an oxen, I still wished to accomplish in the sports. There would always be fierce arguments on this issue. I neglected my family which I really regretted.

They wanted me to get a full time job, yet the burning desire in my heart was brushing up my skills in slalom skating. So I succumbed with part time jobs at times, because of physical and mental fatigue, I can't commit much to a full time job in long term. At that time, I was training 5 - 6 times per week with at least 2 hours a day, the max I go was 12 hours. Now thinking back, I was crazy. Too clouded with my goal and I neglected my parents' advice.

The main reason I realise was, they really care about my future and my health. But since I'm older now, it is not their responsibilities to put me on track and teach me life lessons. Now it is my responsibility to realise what do I want to do with this life, and make use of whatever knowledge I have to put into use. Of course, my family is still part of my life from time to time. Giving tuitions, teaching them to skate, bringing them out, buying meals for them, sharing tips with them, encourage them, remind them, doing things together...

Only some times, yet the time spent is priceless.

After coaching for a while, I explore other options to enhance on coaching skills. I just felt that something was amiss with my coaching skills. Am I matured enough to impart the skills? I think the greatest impact to my skills was facilitating at Castle Beach which was a great and fun lesson to learn from there. Which I really give thanks to Mr Alvin Lee for introducing other opportunities for my growth and development. I give thanks to the inline skating Head Coach for giving me many opportunities to coach too.

Do forgive me for any mischievous that I brought to you.
Those who do not understand me might have kept guessing about why I seems to be switching jobs for several times thinking I'm a job hopper. That's natural. I was aiming at skating career while doing several jobs. Got it?

And they might have spread untrue rumours about me. And maybe some just curse and swear that I'm exaggerating about what I have gone through.

While we can't stop people from all these. We know ourselves. We know which step we are going to take. It is not for others to manipulate us. Just because they say this and that, we change our mind. Whichever step, continue or give up is really totally up to us. As long as we know why.

I still understand about their ignorance, because I have gone through their stages before. I was young before. I was naive before. I was naughty before. I was playful before even till now. I am still a dreamer...

If you are going to tell me that you know everything in the world when since you were borned, sorry, that's kinda bullsh*tting to me. Unless you are Arhat reborn. Maybe for some you can think better when you were young. Good for you :)
Alright. Busy till end of weekends. Wish all a blissful life.

About Relationship

2011-02-23T00:02:00.002+08:00

I am still single. I even think that to become a nun is awesome.

After analyzing, it would be good to have one in order to advance in our experience of relationships. Which I wish to improve in my skills on handling relationships. Since most people with troubles are often into relationships.

Good way to explore and learn. If the relationship did not work, hard way to heal. But, it's another chance to realise everything and put things together into whole. So far what I can see, relationship is mainly about handling responsibilities, juggling with emotions and times, harmony and unity.

We can't expect that all relationships can last forever. Unless we are in India? Where rates of divorcing is the least.

Some people went from relationship to another, seems ever changing. They were not satisfied with the current ones and think the next one will be better. And the next one ain't that great, so change again, and so on and so forth.

Some people go by chemistry or "feeling". If they met the one they truly like, they will get into it seriously and try to make it works as possible. So most of these kinds might last for long or even forever.

Some people tend to date and date, even if they are still in a relationship. If they found somebody better, they will break of the current ones and move on to what they think "suitable".

Some people find relationships troublesome and stressful due to their workloads and studies. So they rather stay single.

Some people are too timid to voice out even if they'd found someone they like or love. This is totally common as fear occur natually in most people. Fear of rejections.

Some people look into physiques. Some look into materials. Some look into characters.

Maybe all these process are for us to explore and learn and realise. But what kind of learning processes do we want? What kind of relationships do we want to come back to us? I think it is all up to us, what are we going to sow now?

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Finally, I pluck up the courage to write this entry which I always have wanted to. I had always shunned away from this topic when people always ask me when will I get a boyfriend, especially my closer kins. While, I hope you are not thinking that I'm weird or eccentric just because I'm still single now.

There are a handful of people who are single even till golden age.

It's great to be single. It's also great to have a relationship with another half.

Both have different pros and cons.

I already have listed out the qualities that I looked into my guys few days ago, which maybe I shall list some out here. Mainly focusing on the character. That will be later on.

May all be well and happy. I give thanks to all who have been kind and generous to me and my family.

Moving 2010

2011-02-19T01:43:00.002+08:00

I just read Chicken Soup for the Soul - Count Your Blessings.

Fantastic! What I'm going through is nothing worst than what others are going through. ;)

Still, I would like to compile and share this exciting journey of moving for 4 times in a year. And also some things I've learnt.

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For privacy purpose, no names and addresses are revealed here. All these are written using all incidents I can remember, the purpose for this entry is to create awareness on issues about renting room. Thank you.
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One. (April)

It started off when I opened the window in living room because of the musty air in it. He was angry with me so he scolded me. But it did not stop there. Alot commotions went on for several days, he threw all of our shoes that we put outside into our room, then threw my washed laundry, etc. Luckily I have a loud voice, which makes him stopped all the insanity.

At first, we already heard something from the neighbours about the owners. But we chose not to believe first, until all his strange behaviours sufficed. I even said to my mate, even if its real, I sympathise them because rental fee is their only survival tool... To think I was so bold. In the end, he asked us to leave.

Luckily this man was sane enough to return us our deposits, all thanks to my mate and the agent. I give thanks to this experience that opened my eyes on what we have to take note while living under the owner's roof. All thanks to my roommate who'd shared with me so much during the stay. After that, we chose to live separately.

So, before you rent a room from owner, make sure you check their I/C numbers with HDB whether is there any complaints, and also check your instinct. And also, make sure that you or the Agent had checked with the neighbours about this owner. Especially those who had stayed for very long time.

Two. (May)

It is a fantastic place which I love it at first sight that I took it immediately but after that I felt regret. Next I pushed away the feelings of regrets.

I started to get extremely busy with works when I settled down which I will call it home. It is a home, because of the interactions between the family. Warm, eventful, peaceful and harmony. When I moved in I realised that the son did not have a room. I thought he resided in another room, but it was vacant by a couple. The owner only informed me about that after I moved in.

I never bother about it. There's some chemistry between me and this home, it made me felt so happy naturally that I started to venture in many things... The family is hospitable and easy to chat.

Problems arised when the exams are nearing. So the son need a room to study, I have to move out. I tried to understand. The mum would sure worry about the son. The son would worry about his results because he is an outstanding student in school, and this time it is preparing for 'Ó' Level.

At first, she wanted me to leave within a week after my oversea trip. What a bad time to tell me this bad news when I was so exhausted. But I negotiated for more time to stay before I move. When it was nearing, I knew something will happen, and I can't move on the date 1st Sept. So, I push the moving date a week later. This time the negotiation took several days with the mum and son. In the end I was quite angry when they still did'nt want to extend just a week even after I begged them profusely. I think I said something spiteful which was out of my mind, then they allowed. Relieved~

So last minute, my first week of September was filled with many activities and there was a rare opportunity for me to go oversea for 3 days which I was only informed 2 days before the trip... Immediately after the trip, I finally moved. Also felt very sad when leaving because I have to leave some of the kindest people I ever met.

Overall, I am really extremely grateful towards the family who had treated me like one of them.
I have learnt from the father: Be contented with what we have, and always be generous if you want to be rich and happy. (Because his favourite words are: "Anything la!" "Give you, I don't need." "Do you have enough? Give you more food.") Sometimes, he cooked too much so he asked me to help finish up.

I learnt from the mother and son: Be firm with what you want and persevere, but also make sure you look at the whole picture of the situation, kindness and understanding are still needed.

So, from this overall scene, we must make sure that there are enough rooms for all the family members before moving in. But I am glad to have stayed with them for those few months. Meaningful, interesting and exciting.

Three. (Sept)

By then I was a party goer and a nocturnal being. I was miserable inside. Everything I do and say seems so wrong.

Now then I realised so. So that's why, I strictly agree that a time for oneself is extremely important. Always put health the priorty before you regret.

This time, the room is spacious! But my room's always in a mess. A bad incident: the male owner enter my room infront of my eyes. So I was utterly disappointed. No keys for the room too. OK, in that case, I leave my things unpack... That's why always in a mess.

So moved after a month. Overall, they are very good people. But the man enter my room without telling me is a total disturbance to me.

From here, I think make sure that there are keys for your room, for prevention of things lost and easy trespassing.

Four (Oct)

The present one.

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For privacy purpose, no names and addresses are revealed here. All these are written using all incidents I can remember, the purpose for this entry is to create awareness on issues about renting room. Thank you.
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Good night, dear World.

Zest!

2011-02-17T23:57:00.002+08:00

I felt my heart is bubbling with zest. Full of energy. Full of bliss. After few days of sadness and guilt, finally yearn to get on with more new experiences! Feel like getting out to reach out for the world.

Had paused many things because needed time to sort out alot things and doubts in mind. Also, had learnt alot of things through the big break and realised alot. There are still so many things in the world that I have not experienced and realised before.

At that point of time in October 2010, I cut down modelling, photography, and stopped partying, stopped sociallising, and then converted into vegetarian. I was moving and moving last year which was so tiring while juggling with my hectic schedule of lessons, tuitions, pageant, modelling, photoshoots, gyms, travelling, finding new places and negotiating with the owners which took several days...

I was so fedup with so many unhappiness, that I cut many things off. I just want to cut down very much. Maybe you will deem this as abnormal.

If I never do it, I would'nt know what will happen. At that point of time, I just want to gain back my normal self.
Ok, I shall continue this post next time.

Good night!

Learning

2011-02-15T16:31:00.003+08:00

Most of us will agree that serving others is the main purpose that we come to this world. Here's some few words that were being stucked in my mind. Remember, these are just for reading. I encourage you to believe only words that you have experienced before.

The World is like a school.

Waiting for us to explore, learn, realise, improve and sharing what we'd learnt.

We hated, so we have to learn through hatred and revenge. If we did not learn how to forgive, we have to go through all over again by hating this and that.

We are envious, so we have to learn through envious. If we did not learn how to be happy for others achievement, we have to go through all over again by being envy of others.

Same for all other sins, negativities and bad habits which are bad for our well beings and society. Anger, greed, lust, selfishness, jealousy, envy, grievance, arrogance and carelessness. Smoking, drugs, crimes, alcoholism, abusing, lying and many more.

Somehow we should learn to understand; without all these we would not have improved.

All these learning experiences are through own family, relationships, government, workplace, money, community, gatherings, obstacles, accidents, disasters, philanthropic acts, reading, sports, dramas, career, news and many more.

But if we want to improve, we must be willing to change.

The will must be strong enough. Through the whole experiences, there will come more obstacles.

And that's how many of us learn and realise.

How to help others to realise and learn?

We should not interfere what they are going through. We should not enforce them on following certain ways to think, speak and act. We should not carry the resposibilities for them. Because if we do all these, in the end what happen we have to bear the consequences, and they will not learn and realise at all. They may even in the end blame us...
Most of us are good at pushing responsibilities, that's why.

What I think:
We should help them to think on their own about their problems and sufferings.
We can help by pointing out the facts on how all those problems might have arised as far as our knowledge knows.
We can suggest ways to overcome all the problems.
We can help them physically if they are of physical handicapped, at the same time we should "feed" them mental and emotions encouragements so they will be able to survive on their own even stronger.

By donating money is good, but only a temporary solution. Still it is better than keeping money only to ourselves when we have more than enough.

Physical help is also good especially for children, physical impaired people and senior citizens.

For those who are in need of emotional support:
we should do our best to help, suggest and advice (they must be willing to let you too). Whether they want to improve for better, the rest is up to them. I think sometimes is better to refer them to someone more professional than us when needed.
Recall: I used to be someone who always want to help people from bottom till the end. Ha, its a gruelsome job with endless blamings... that's how I learnt my lesson. Even now, sometimes tend to. Most of the time, will remind myself that all these are temporary, all those difficulties will be over, they will be better then. Help when necessary.

Anyway, wish you a happy learning experience.

Through

2011-02-05T17:45:00.000+08:00

Cried. We have continued to harm oursleves.

Some people were oblivious about what they are doing.

Even we had persuaded them of the harms.

Which will come to them, but yet they won't listen.

It is such a pathetic scene.

But we can't just sit and do nothing about it.

Tried our best and we shall not nurse grievance.

Not at all.

Since they have to go through everything.

They have to get the hands on.

They need the chances to learn.

We persuaded ourselves aftermaths.

We have done our best.

Whatever can be done, we do.

Whatever can be said, we say.

The rest is all up to the rest.

Once done, we shall feel relieved.

Even if they won't change.

As long as we are righteous.

Still at the same time,

Feeling the pain they are going through.

Feeling the needs to console them.

Only during the right times.

Hoping that they shall wake up.

Like how we had gone through.

Ups and downs.

In the end we wake up a little.

Being aware of why we are here.

Being aware of where are we from.

Knowing who are we in past, present and future.

Through many evolutions.

Humans are ever-changing.

Busy

2011-02-01T18:24:00.000+08:00

A life that is not too busy.

More space to think.

Follow with the flow.

Famous or not.

We do all that we can.

Too busy means insufficient rest.

We are all human.

Too busy means more stress.

Can we think more deeply?
Maybe busy means more cash.

Maybe busy means useful.

Depends on what we do.

What kind of services are we for?

Food & Beverage
Money
Education
Healthcare
Sports
Necessities
Entertainment

Depends on what we are.

Never lack of choices.

But only what we do.

Never can we be too busy.

There always be time for all.

Only if we want or not.

We choose what we want to do.

In term of yes or no.
Be it kind or abrupt.

All in our hands.

And minds.

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Wish you a Happy New Year.

May this Rabbit year be prosperous, meaningful, lucky, happy and smooth for you and your family.

Children

2011-01-27T18:25:00.000+08:00

I'm inspired today.

By a newspaper articles on how problemetic kids improve their behaviours and studies through counselling.

If you are interested to read more about it, its in today's Straits Times under Mind, Body, Soul.

Children are our gems to the future.

Children hold the history, present and the future.

We have so much to learn from them.

No matter how much they got us mad, in the end they are testing us and leading us to learn from them.

They become the tools to open our eyes even wider. They open our hearts too.

Into their inner world.

Even though I'm not a parent, I am willing to treat other parents' kids as my own kids.

I may not be able to do a job as good as you, I am willing to give my best shots with all the knowledge that I have.

With the passion I have for kids.

With the future studies I will be going through.

With a kid-like nature.

With many rooms to improve.

No one can be too perfect or too good.

Stop

2011-01-26T16:14:00.000+08:00

Writing is a great way to release tension at times.

It would be so cruel of me, that I will stop myself from writing.

Sometimes I stop myself from doing things that I really want.

Knowing the consequences...

While, depends on what kind of stuff.

This time I'm trying to stop myself from my most beloved work.

How ironic.

I wonder why am I doing this.

Shall wait and see.

I have this yearning to go back to school. ;)

Hmm... what should I study?

Be

2011-01-26T15:54:00.000+08:00

We had been selfish before.
We had been arrogant before.
We had been jealous before.
We had been depressed before.
We had been lusting before.
We had been a control freak before.
We had been grieving before.
We had been wanting before.
We had been angry before.
We had been careless before.
May be even now, or may be we used to be but now we are changed.

We had been generous before.
We had been humble before.
We had been understanding before.
We had been tolerant before.
We had been kind before.
We had been considerate before.
We had been cheering before.
We had been dispassionate before.
We had been tranquil before.
We had been careful before.
May be even now, or may be we used to be but now we are not.

So what are your desires?
So who we want to be? who are we?
Who are we to become?
Are we pursuing the right things?
At the rignt moments?
Are we becoming wise or otherwise?

Be ourselves, be attentive to at any moment.
Be yourself. Be myself.
Be himself. Be herself. Be itself.
Be oneself.
Be united.

Generate our minds. We will become.

Separation

2011-01-25T16:46:00.000+08:00

Thoughts. Past. Over.

Why not relieved?

Realised that all these gone.

Have we not enough?

If we were to know...

Would we not regret?

Tell me its true.

Tell me its not.

For all those years we through,

You said to give up.

You build up from scratch,

You gave away...

I don't see a point.

Soon, you will be gone.

Hardly will I think.

May a new future,

Await us.

Towards the path we planned,

Living a new life.

Nothing true,

Nothing real.

All were dreams.

Why did our souls meet at first?

Separation,

at the end.

Never ever happy,

so separate.

Will new life makes us happy?

It seems neverending.

Separations,

Over and over again.

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Currently, I'm feeling as above.

May all be happy.

We Live To Learn

2011-01-18T15:47:00.000+08:00

There are many others who are as good as us, as bad as us, as brilliant as us, even better or badder.

All of us are learning. My all-time favourite quote: "We live to learn." This quote was created by me when one day a few years back, I realised, through all the works, hobbies, families, we are always learning and changing. There are no fixed jobs, no fixed partners... nothing is fixed because one day we will soon pass away.

So the best thing I realised is to learn because, whatever in our memories might be erased while we were to live our next lives, yet whatever we learnt will still follow us... obliviously.

Since we went through process whereby we were doing evil deeds in the past, that's the reason why we should forgive people who had done badly to us. That is due to our past. We are experiencing what we have had done in the past.

Since we went through process which we had succeeded in many endeavours, it shows that we should feel happy and congratulate for others' triumphants too because there were many who had cheered and celebrated for us before.

Be it geniune, be it fake.

All it takes is the effort to try or not to try, in the end we all are learning some lessons.

The process of learning the virtues, comes not easy.

So, whenever we came upon some writings of famous and aspired writers or phillosophists, though complex in their language, we should at least read them heartedly.

To chance upon these writings might not be easy too. Specific writings will only come to you according to your suits, your life, your etc you can think of. They will come to you at certain time. Remember: Not all writings shall be accepted.

So treasure them whenever you can. Be grateful with things that all come to you. You will soon be able to realise, to be grateful even to the bad you ditch the hatred and ignorance. Light and love will soon enter your life.

May your life be full of joy and love!

Events Of Yesterday & Today

2011-01-02T21:42:00.001+08:00

My first day of New Year 2011...

I am grateful to some beads that protected my fingers as they were being smashed into bits by the door which were being slammed by a strong gust of wind.

Although I only had 3 hours of sleep, in the end I am still able to wake up at 5.15am to wait for the sun to rise. I think excitement woke me up.

Due to lack of sleep, I took a nap for 3 hours. In the end, I was 2 hours late and my friend left me. While, because of this incident, I build better rapport with my student's mother who I was going to meet on that day too.

Even though I was 2 hours late, my friend agreed to meet me up for Pulau Ubin today!

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Trip to Pulau Ubin is a fruitful one. Rented the bicycle and we headed towards West / North West.

Please take note that the printing of maps of Pulau Ubin were stopped according to an officer.

I wonder why they had stopped printing, should have asked him. I wish that Pulau Ubin will still continue to be a place for nature lovers and may the islanders be blessed.

There are several places of worship. If you want to enjoy with a peace of mind, that is. ;) Pulau Ubin is a place of wilderness which we must always be considerate and responsible anywhere we go on the island.

Halfway through the journey, we stopped at Celestial Resort for the Fish Spa at only $10. So most of our cuticles and dead skins were removed by now. Don't worry, those fishes won't bite. They will only kiss your skins. Or take it as a good deed to feed the fish.

We reached Ketam Mountain Bike Park and went through several dirt track. New experience for me. Next time we shall have good mountain bikes to assist us. We rode until our backsides sore... Tough tracks, but the scenery is breathtaking! Anyone interested to venture there? I prefer to go with someone I know.

I never take any pictures. I just don't feel like. Maybe next time. Taking a break from flirting with the cameras.

Went through Jalan Jelutong, Jalan Batu Ubin, Jalan Noordin, Jalan Ubin, Jalan Durian... I never visit Chek Jawa because I've got to work.

It was amusing how when both of us took turn to give wrong directions.

Finally, I'm on my way home and took only around half an hour to reach home including the journey on bum boat. WOW!

Hopefully this entry will inspire you to give the nature a visit and love it. It is not so healthy to be always cooped amongst a city life. We are part of the nature. Loving nature means loving ourselves. Got it?

Got to end here.

May Year 2011 be a great one for all!

What If I Stop Coaching

2010-12-29T20:50:00.000+08:00

Letting go is equivalent to a broken heart.

So what can I do in future if I'm not coaching anymore?

I'm thinking of becoming a librarian in a small library. So I can enjoy some peace while working, and search for my favourite books.

But somehow I need to be more active during daytime...

Recently, some people approached me to take up Student Care. But I rejected because it is too far from home. Especially working time is 7am, and I will need more than 1 hour to reach from my house... I don't think I would be able to be there early every day. Haha~

Frankly speaking, I am still extremely willing to continue to coach people on sports. But if some circumstances obstruct my self-development, I think it is not worth to continue anymore.

And if chaos are going to happen in future, I think I should put it to a total halt. Either change company or change job or change sports.

Ah, however tough life can be, I will follow with the flow.

MacRitchie to Bukit Timah.

2010-12-26T20:46:00.001+08:00

Hiked from McRitchie Reservoir to Bukit Timah just now.

I think many must have done before. This is my first time to complete the full route. Went to MacRitchie several times, not that I'm like a frog in a well!

I went there with a friend. Saw so many trees, and trees and trees again.

However, someday, I wish to go again.

Breathing amongst the greeneries, make us feel so refresh. But the 12km trail had exhausted my feet.

So we started off from the Reservoir. My eyes saw trees, my nose smelt trees, my ears heard birds, my 6th-sense sensed... trees. Anyway there were alot runners while we were hiking.

Less running start walking, so you can become more aware of your surrounding with clear mind. Of course running is healthy, but too much over doing is a wreckling damage to our knees and minds.

Trees, trees again at Treetop walk which required us to climb alot of stairs. Only one-way so no u-turn. Good lesson for the indecisive.

Then enter the Jelutong Tower. Bird-eye view of more trees again! Of course if you are lucky, you can spot eagles hovering in the skies. So, I am lucky!

After the winds kissed our skins and played with our hairs for sometimes, we headed towards Bukit Timah.

At first we went towards the Upper/Lower Peirce Reservoir but there's no complete route. We found another route. Way out, we saw a bright green snake.

We were greeted by several monkies and monitor lizard and giant millepede while travelling on the Rifle Range. First time ever saw a millipede the length of half foot long, like your Subway sandwich.

We found Kampong Trail with Nangka Trail and Durian Loop which lead us back to MacRitchie. the other half of the Trail which lead along Rifle Range Road were surrounded by warnings so we never explore. Grrr...

For your information, Nangka in English, it is Jackfruit. Bukit means Mountain or Hill. Timah means very high. Kampong means village. Durian is the Thorny fruit which may cause your fingers to bleed, and your nose either bleed or puke. ;)

I thought we should head towards the Bukit Timah Nature Reserve, but we were too hungry. We started about 9.40am and ended at around 2.30pm settling our lunch at Bukit Timah Food Centre.

This is meaningful to me.
Connecting to the nature.
Breathing amongst the nature.
Caring for the nature.

I feel sad to see so many fallen trees. :(

May you start to care for nature!
May all the trees and plants be well and happy.
May all beings be blessed with a good heart and good mind.

Bless All Christmas 2010!

2010-12-23T21:00:00.000+08:00

Right here, right now!

I wish everybody have a very Merry Christmas!

May all being receive blessings and compassion!

May peace be with the World.

Happy Christmas by John Lennon
dedicated to all~

May the joy be shared with all, no matter who you are and where you are.

Realize

2010-12-20T21:04:00.000+08:00

For some reasons, I feel sad after discovering some truths.

However, sadness is not permanent. The truth is.

Which my mind is not ready. So that's why I'm sad.

I started to realize something which I was so ignorant in the past.

Vegetarianism Bits

2010-12-18T21:40:00.000+08:00

Finished a karaoke cum eating session with a group of like-minded people.

We enjoyed singing many oldies and classics. I love how all the powerful vocals sing!

I am so glad to have joined them.

I always learn something new when engaging in several activities with them.

I am still shy as I am rather new to the group.

New Year is coming. What about setting resolutions for a good start?

My New Year's Resolution shall be written down only when once I have settled down my thoughts.

I think they might bore some of you. *Laughing*

Next Saturday is Christmas Day.

Besides enjoying your Christmas, please share the joy to the people around you too.

Somehow I wish to stay at home.

Because only when we are in silence and peace, then we would be able to share our best wishes to all.

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To me, eating is one of the basics to live a life. We are what we eat. So we shall start with our food intake.

From now on, I will be eating only vegetarian food due to the habit I developed recently.

You may follow as you wish, but please do eat a balance diet and do not waste food.

Eat with appreciation and mindfulness.

Less salt, less sugar, less chilli, less fat, and the list goes on.

Since we, vegetarians, are not eating any meat, drinking soya milk and consuming seeds/beans are essential to get proteins.

I found out that vegetarian food will not make you feel legarthic after meal. I feel so much more alert aftermaths.

You may think eating vegetarian is a religion, don't tell me the cow or the goat is religious?

They only eat the greens. This shows that they never kill. Yet we kill them for food.

All animals have the rights to live like all of us, including insects.

May you be blessed with great health.

Reject Kindlier

2010-12-16T20:55:00.000+08:00

I feel so tired today.

I don't know.

Today is extremely tired.

I just can't figure out.

What had went wrong?

:'(

And why?

It is such a situation seems without solution.

We have to face it.

Why do some people have to suffer with unknown reasons?

When helps are offered, why do some people want to go through the hellish state themselves?

I sympathize them, but what can I do to help?

Is praying the only possible way?

I hope my blessings will help.

At least uplift the hardships they have to go through.

In any ways.

And many many ways.

Now, their problems seems to become my problems.

I only believe that they can live a better life if they allow themselves to.

Only if they are willing to accept kindness from others.

Never ever reject kindness abruptly or rudely. It can cause great heartache and make others stop helping you in future. Make sure if you don't want to accept kindness, be sure to thank the offerer sincerely, then reject kindly by smiling to them.

People are kind, why kill their kindness?

Sounds common-senseful?

Not everybody can do it.

I just wish everybody be kinder to each other.

Even our enemies are kind in nature.

Why torture ourselves?

Are They Enemies?

2010-12-13T21:00:00.003+08:00

I am writing this entry base on what I think. I am not trying to offend anyone. Examples are from several dramas which are not based on true stories.

It is raining! Want to go out? You just need an umbrella! Why should you dread about rainy day when all you need is an umbrella in order to go out? Sometimes, you don't even need one so you are able to enjoy the touch of rain!

Who are your enemies?

Let us look at the different situations below:

Your mother who just nag at you for not tidying your room and shout back at her, then she nag on you for being so rude and you question on why she can't use a proper tone to ask you to tidy your room, then she scold you for teaching her.

Your father who chided you for lazing around then ask you to go and help your mum, and you argue with him why he never help. In the end he scolded you or hit you because you just talk back.

Your brother who hit you and you hit him back, then he hit back you hit back, then in the end either he cry or you cry. In the end both were asked why are you hitting each other, you say he hit you first, and he says you did something nasty before he hit you.

Your sister who accidentally tear your expensive clothes and you ask her to buy new ones. Next, she said she already apologized, then you will say apologize won't recover your clothes to normal. You demand her to get new ones, in the end she is not willing and you start to scold her or hit her and take her things and spoil it.

Your children quarrel for something. You try to stop them and but they still continue. Until you take out a cane to hit them then they stop. They are still unhappy about each other, but now they are unhappy with you too.

Your uncles and aunties visit. They started to chit chat with your mum and dad. They start to talk about children, and then mum and dad start to compare you and cousins. Your cousins are studying universe, and you are taking your normal stream or you are working only with a Diploma Cert. Next thing you know, you start to get envy and jealous with them.

The neighbor put rubbish at your doorsteps and you start to knock on their door furiously. You ask them why they threw rubbish on your doorsteps, and demand an apology but they say they never throw. You insist that they had throw because they are the nearest neighbor you have, or you might have offended them so the greatest suspicion is them. In the end, you all quarrel for that rubbish again.

The car owner who cut your way while you are driving and you start to curse and swear. The driver shows apology or ignored you, then you start to wave your hand furiously at them and or point middle finger. In the end, the driver will drive as fast as possible to get away from you or purposely form an accident.

Maybe some of the above are very familiar to some you.

Think of all the situations that have caused you to become unhappy.

Enemies are those people that you get angry with because they did something that make you feel unhappy. Once you have the slightest dislike towards them, they become your enemy.

When we pause and think; are they really worth for us to be dislike? It is like a never-ending cycle. You shout she shout he shout then you shout and so forth.

They are all human beings. They are kind hearted people by nature. We need not make ourselves miserable by hating them, dislike them, grudge against them.

Why are we forming enemies throughout our life, when we can treat them as our friends, mentors and teachers? We can learn from them.

You might think HOW?

Just remember, only those unpleasant situations can train your morality. Whether you are parents, teachers, principals, bosses, CEOs, managers, workers, officers, coolies, students, etc, as long as you are a human being, it is time for us to treat all these unpleasant experiences as a stepping stone to learn to become understanding, to be tolerant, to be forgiving and to be kind and other morales.

If the others are never kind to us, as long as we do our best to be kind to all around us without expectation for return then we will become happier.

I think the first 2 situations: both parents & children have to do their part together to explore & communicate on what is going wrong instead of hitting and scolding because children always see their parents as role model even when they are grown up.

In another words, what you want your children to grow up to be? If you want them to acquire virtues and morality, what do you have in yourselves? Sometimes when children start to show no respect to you, it is time to reflect on yourself. You are not always right.

Even though I am not parents, I can understand, raising up a child is not easy.

But if you want a child, then you should put in effort to raise it up and nurture it. Not just leave them aside and hoping that they will struggle on their own. Even if you were treated that way when you are young, it is time to dump that thinking away.

To bear a child for the mother is already so difficult. So many unknowns might happen during the pregnancy.

Even if you have it accidentally, you should still bear the fullest responsibilities whether it will end up a bad or good person.

A child is born, not knowing what is right, what is wrong. Children always act differently from what we adult think with whatever things that came across them.

It is not by luck that a child is a perfect person. It is through great effort, unconditional love, understanding, tolerance, kindness, learning, knowledge and through meeting its needs. Unconditional love means want it to be happy mentally/spiritually and not materially.

It is by facing challenges of raising up a child. Different child have different approaches to deal with. But all children, you need to be firm, you must be loving and kind, you must treat them with

equanimity.

Different method, different approaches, but you must show them the same kindness. Only through understanding and tolerance, then parenting jobs will become easier and fruitful.

In order for all of us to be happy mentally/spiritually, we have to be taught. We have to learn. We have to acquire knowledge. Same for children.

If we want the future generations to become better people, we have to depend on the parents too. Not just teachers!

If the children did something wrong, I hope they will be educated by the parents then the teachers then the society... Sometimes, you may claim they are too rebellious. What are the reasons behind? Have you tried to find out?

I do understand parents are affected by their own parents too. Hope you have forgiven them if they have done wrongly and be grateful with what they have taught you through the experiences you have gone through.

Wish all of you happy! Smile ;)

Sunshine

2010-12-11T21:30:00.000+08:00

Most people in Singapore are at ZoukOut in Sentosa now.

I am so fortunate to be able to sleep early later after a day.

ZoukOut is really not for me.

A peaceful day is a happy day.

You are my Sunshine, my only Sunshine.

You make me happy, when skies are grey.

You never know dear, how much I love.

Please don't take my sunshine away.

To me the "You" means Peace & Compassion.

That is the reason why I love the song.

So let the Sunshine in, face it with a grin.

Frowners never win, Smilers never lose.

So let the Sunshine in, face it with a grin.

Open your heart and let the Sunshine in.

I still prefer the Children's version of You Are My Sunshine.

Although we must learn to be happy, but the things we do must be righteous.

Never do things that harm others, and you say you feel happy.

Compassion means to wish people happiness with no selfish intentions.

When have you done a deed out of compassion?

We still have to be reminded, even there's no War in our countries, but there are wars existing in anywhere and we can't see. Wars means fighting with each other within companies, associations and even in schools, etc.

Hopefully, we will do more things out of kindness. In the end, many will benefit from kindness, including you. ;)

Nothing's Permanent

2010-12-10T20:13:00.000+08:00

Nothing is permanent.

Changes will always take place.

Understand.

Acceptance.

Forgive.

Let go.

Live the present with your whole heart.

Aim to be a better person with better characters.

Stop clinging to things that you have already lost as they already past.

Look forward to the good things; new experiences and new knowledge you are going to gain during the every next step you make.

May your lives be filled with light and joy!

Basics of Living Mind

2010-12-09T15:52:00.000+08:00

Anything I have wrote are all random thoughts.

I wondered what can I or should I write today.

While, just write.

Anyway the aim for having a blog is to share my thoughts and views without having to be there in person upfront of anybody. I think pictures are mundane unless occasionally, because uploading them will waste my time to wait and wait...

I will rather use the time to arrange my thoughts. And hopefully the knowledge will benefit those who are reading.

Many times it is so easy to ink down our thoughts, rather than to express them through speeches.

Many a time, some of us think that it is easy to be an useful human being. Actually it can be tough if we don't put life to a closer look.

If we did not practise morality properly in all areas of our works and what we do, it can be tough for us to achieve humanity.

The basics of what we do in our daily lives: Eat, Sleep, Walk, Sit, Play, Work and Think and etc.

All these elements are like jigsaw puzzles, joining together to form either beautiful pictures or ugly pictures or incomplete pictures or weak pictures or strong pictures or meaningful pictures or meaningless pictures. Always with missing parts to be searched.

Somehow, somewhat, many bad habits and good habits are adopted through all these tiny, mini events in our lives. Somehow, somewhat, many bad habits and good habits are formed through the process of our minds and emotions.

Somehow, somewhat, we may say all of us are imperfect by personalities and characteristics, but we can become perfect at our own will and then keep on practising.

In the end, to become perfect in our characteristics, we must put in great efforts and overcome great obstacles.

We have to be very courageous to let our ego and pride down, and to face our enemies without putting poison on them in any ways, and also to be criticised for our careless mistakes, and to become thankful even to them.

We have to face everything with positiveness even if we were being despised, being hurt, being injured, being make use, and or being trampled. We can only break down when we need to be released and must stand up again as soon as possible so as not to waste our lives.

We have to learn to tolerate, to understand, to forgive, to be grateful, to be compassion, to be kind and to be loving to all without any unjust and discrimination.

In order to do this, somehow I found that we need to revamp our minds step by step.

We can't expect instant results, or else we will go bonker.

So, let's start today with kindness in everything we do! Remember to be kind to your enemies too. You may think it is absurd, but they are human too and they are actually kind in nature. It is tough at first, remember it all starts in your minds.

But if they are trying to murder or kill you then you better run for your life! Run!!! Do not give them a chance to touch a hair! ;D

Hope you will accumulate kindness in a long run. Many happy days ahead! ;)

Flexibility and Competing

2010-12-07T17:02:00.003+08:00

I started to do yoga for a few weeks. It is nothing new at all as this form of exercise existed since thousands years ago. People of all age, all races and all gender are welcome to participate. It has so many benefits to us - Human Beings.

I am glad to be able to do many basic poses. I feel awesome. Frankly speaking, all of us have the ability to flex, it is whether we want to do it or not. For start make sure do it STEP BY STEP and do more practises.

Once I attended a basic yoga class, it caused alot commotions. The youngest in the group and I can flex so much. But I still feel my basics are not that good... Then I stopped attending and focus to practice on the basics first.

Yoga is not just about being flexible! It is actually much more.

Talking about flexibility, I hardly can bend backward when I was at a young age.

The interesting thing was I could bend forward so well until my nose touch the leg. I discovered this when we were tested on sit and reach for during PE lessons. I was always within the Top 5 on Sit and Reach amongst all my classmates since Primary 4.

But people who used to be around me told me how inflexibility I was. And laughed at me, tell me I would not be able to do it. Since I was very young, I just agreed with them. Although disappointed deep inside, I managed to push the thoughts away and never pondered.

Until when I became a teenager, I told myself it is very possible to be flexible. Started to feel inferior when people tell me it is impossible.

So I forced myself to stretch and stretch.

I did it! With nobody's help... I made use of the wall and any tools that could help me. Since some of my sisters have dancing experiences, I hear from them how they had learnt too.

It can be dangerous because there were no certified instructors or any experience coaches to coach me on how to do the flexing exercises properly.

So after I gain flexibilty, I went on to try out dancing. The instructor was rather amazed by how flexible I was and as I was not a dancer... I was afraid she might have thought I was a liar at that time. Haha!

Through this, I realised I am a self-learner. But I wish to meet teachers and mentors so to learn more from them and gain insights.

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I could not run fast, but I can run a very long distance.

Once, it was a family outing to Bedok stadium, I ran 10 rounds of the stadium track but no one believed me. Haha! Because nobody believed it and I was only 10 years old, so I told myself I must show results. Thinking back, I wonder how I did it...

So with perserverance, I continued to excel in running my 2.4KM. Always amongst the top 10 in class, including all the guys - since primary 4 till secondary 4. I always love to compete with guys, because they always run so fast! They are more challenging to compete with. The fastest I ever heard was 7 mins! My fastest record was 9 mins.

Sometimes, after 2.4KM, I still wish to continue.

I have a great sense of achievement. I move on to win trophies for being the Top 5 runners in Cross Country, competing with all the ladies of same age.

So when the girls were always dreading the run, me and a few friends were always looking forward to it.

Through this, I found out that I can be a self-motivator. Still, I wish to engage and gather with more like-minded people to pursue my interests.

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It is so funny how some human minds can work. Only with certs, with results, then they will start to show interest and regard you as somebody. Then after that they want us to achieve more. Sometimes the more we achieve, the more we became unhappy.

Maybe we had lost touch in the meaning of the purpose to having more achievements.

Just because we focused too much about competing and we never thought for our progressions and feelings of others. Just because of competing, our minds have the tendency to sway into the path of harming people (mentally and or physically) so we can gain fame, gain rewards, gain acknowledgement and much more.

The term "harming" includes all the negative emotions that arise during the course of preparations and interactions with our competitors. We might think they are inside our minds and nobody can see what we are thinking about our competitors so on so for, we can hide the inner thoughts.

Eventually, all these emotions will reveal.

So the right competing mindset have to be adopted if you really want to stay happy even if you win or never win.

Basically what people will say enjoy the process.

Maybe you will start to think how to enjoy the process?

To me there are much more to it. Because I understand that some of you might find it very hard to enjoy with ease.

You have to start to understand your inner emotions first. If there are alot negative ones, we have to take responsibility to change them into positive ones.

With denials, it is possible the situations will worsen. It is because we are afraid of our own emotions. Needless to say, this will lead to another few more negative emotions.

We have to remember that what we do and feel in the past will influence our behaviours now and future.

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By ending this entry, I shall wish you all the best in everything you do. ;)

Portray attitude

2010-11-28T21:21:00.000+08:00

Mental and physical readiness are very important.

The amount we rest can hugely affect our performances.

How we portray our attitude can differ too.

Maybe the difference is with or without proper guidance.

Maybe the difference is with the culture.

Maybe the difference is with the internal politic.

Maybe the difference is with the supports given.

I am pondering why are there a big difference between different talents.

Maybe it is for us to accept the fact of that great difference.

Can we be trained to become the next great player, next great personel?

It is for us to decide.

Of course with the right attitude, we should be able to excel.

Not arrogance, but with confidence and humbleness.

Not uncertain, but with gratitude and positive mindset.

Not vengeful, but with acceptance and forgiveness.

Planning is a must. But will we accept changes?

Not to forget, the right guidance and the groups we mixed with will affect us almost completely.

Somehow it might be difficult to take on the right attitudes.

Some may have done it on the surface. What about the inner self?

Some have done it well, and I wish to learn and hear from them.

Last but not least. Our own Karma will affect us too.

We can hide from some, but not the rest.

That is why reflections are always important.

I wish all of you be well and happy.

(If some people had hurt you recently, it could be you have hurt that people in the recent past or past lives... So that's why one must learn to forgive and accept. We don't know how much good or bad deeds have we done before in our past lives. It is not too late to start forgiving now.)

NYAA Students

2010-11-25T19:28:00.002+08:00

Today is the last session with a group of NYAA students from a Seconday School in Yishun area.

I feel so accomplished.

They are one of the most cooperative group I ever coached.

We had spent 12 days together learning to skate intensively and had alot fun.

They put in alot effort to learn.

We do everything we can to deliver the knowledge.

At the very end, I had to rack my brain on writing remarks for each and everyone.

There are 30 of them.

Thank you students.

Thank you teachers.

Thank you all who had made the experience a pleasant one.

Looking forward to coach in more schools.

Next thing I'm looking forward is the results of my tuition kids!

I am updating here.

Notes added

2010-11-23T21:28:00.000+08:00

I have just added a note for whom are interested to hire me as your freelance coach.

It will act as a reminder for me too.

Sorry for the inconvenience caused.

Angry Today

2010-11-11T23:43:00.000+08:00

I started to realise that I am on the downside of my career life.

Is it true that I am only suitable for short term career like what several people had persuaded me?

I want to prove that I can work long term for a company.

So, I sought to a long period self-reflecting, seeking on what are the problems...

Ain't it enough?

Maybe it is really not enough.

I should do something else instead of just focusing on career...

Time for me to cultivate a new skill!

Recently, whatever came out from my mind is rather angry or depressing.

If you see any of these on my FB status, and think I had posted inappropriately, kindly let me know.

Hopefully I will be able to come out with more positive posts in future.

Today I am just angry. Especially when there're no proper communications at work. I wish he can be more appreciative.

If you want to know what had happened, the whole story is damn long. You can come to me personally as a friend to listen, not a spy who just want to spill the beans.

In the end, you need not believe it. Because you never see what had happened.

But if you have seen it, I'm glad you have sympathy. Thank you.

If that person never learn, its his problem.

In the end, who win who lose is not important.

The only thing that I know is I must learn to purify all the angst that I had against that person who went against me and my deeds.

Once is never enough...

All the best to me!

May compaassions be with all!

Penniless Experience

2010-11-09T15:57:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I just wonder why am I who am I now.

It is not to become famous.

It is not to earn big bucks.

It is not to show what people want to see.

It may not be just teaching or coaching but alot more.

It is to learn.

If you don't get what the word learn means in life, firstly, you may check The Dictionary. I think the best explanation is: "To acquire knowledge, To learn the truth".

One of the hardest things to do for most people including myself: Give up our materialistic belongings. Can you give up yours? For a few times I gave all my money away until I am penniless. The emotion I had was relieve. Being penniless is just a life. There's nothing to be ashamed of.

I know most of you will think this is madness. "Why is she so stupid to give away her money?"
By the way, I am not asking you to follow my footstep! But if you want to, its your own choice. Do bear the consequences since you have chosen it.

From the experience, I also learn that without money I still can survive as long as I never dump myself into pool of neagative thoughts. Got it? Also, I realise that happiness can be found when we share our money or give them away.

People who went bakrupt experience penniless too. How about before there is any bankrupcy, we experience a penniless life? Maybe you will realise that life can be so simple throughout the process.

Sometimes I threw my belongings away... but I find this is harder than giving money away.

The thought of throwing things to me is contribute to the waste matter on our island. I will rather recycle, give them away or sell them away. If they were decomposed or cannot be used or recycle, of course throw...

Once we live life simpler, decreasing the yearn to have this and that, we decrease problems too.

Some think that life is complicated is because they are facing the negative sides of life.

Wish those who are facing the negatives be positive.

Wish everyone in the World an obstacle-free and a happy life. :)

Wish that I will learn to become more tranquil.

Looking forward to the next work!

Simply Karma

2010-11-07T00:47:00.001+08:00

Below contains some contents might be religious to you. Please visit this page if you are not interested. Thank you.

Here we go...

Sometimes, I wish to know what people think about what I had posted.

But what for if they don't wanna voice out?

I think it will be extremely good to receive feedback from people who are willing to give, either negative or positive. Does'nt mean I need to take in All feedback though. It's my choice.

But people nowadays are afraid of hurting feelings of others...

That's what I'm facing too.

Sometimes I just wish to comment straightforwardly, but I really wish not to hurt their feelings.

While, there are times when I am careless, blurt out whatever I think or feel.

I thank those people who had forgiven me, pardoned me and tolerated me for such carelessness. Thank you all. I am still young, still learning... Young at heart, so must learn and learn.

I will always try to find ways not to hurt your feelings.

I hope you do the same to others around you too.

The key way to do is to be more understanding on reasons on why people perform certain kind of actions, be it stupid, silly, irritating or whatsoever.

Remember we/they might be ignorant about how our/their deeds will affect others.

Some days, someone, something or some events will eventually assist us/them into realising it.

In another word, try not to be the judge, or punisher yourself. What we can do is to try to make them/us learn in any possible harmless ways.

When we punish others for their misdeeds, we are creating karmas for ourselves. Possibly bad ones and in the end we will be trapped in an endless cycle.

When people are going through some bad events which could be due to Karma. I'm sure we are taught that it is bad to laugh at them, because we don't know when will be our turn to live through our Karma. Thank you mum for always reminding us that.

If you think you had done something not seemingly right, do not panic. There's still time for you to realize it. Whatever obstacles you need to get through, just get on with it. There's nothing to be fear of.

Karma is created by what we have done in many pasts and till now and future...
It is also created by what we have said in the past, now and future,
Nevertheless, by what we think in the past, now and future.

If you do not understand it is ok. Take a look at this.

It is a long road ahead, so you still have time. If not this life, then next life. If not both, then next next life. No matter what, strive to survive even life f*cks you.

If life does'nt f*ck us all, we will never get to enjoy. ;)

Wish you all the best in life!

Unpredictable Thoughts

2010-11-05T20:03:00.003+08:00

Hello all, I am glad to inform you that I have completed a vegan diet for consecutive 6 days. I wonder how will my physique look like without any meat consumed.

Entry starts here.

There's nothing wrong to keep our moods under control. There's nothing wrong to show our emotions too! It depends on yourself.
I'm in sought to understand the origin behind my emotions, and the causes are pretty complicated. Mostly are indirectly causal by people I interacted with. In the first place, why do I allow all these to happen? Just because I am understanding enough, people tend to take advantage?

Throughout a long process, I had learnt how to forgive, but I've forgotten about myself who needs understanding too.

I never know all these can cause so much despairs deep inside my heart that I ignore how I've felt at first. When the emotions afloat, the ache is unbearable. I wish that it will cease soon.
Why I never write for a long period it is because I put myself into retreat after finishing all the lessons non-stop for 2-3 weeks previously. There is no need to show off how busy am I or how busy are you, because it might result imbalance emotionally or and even mentally.

I just found out, all these imbalances can be from people who are jealous/envious of you, angry at you, and even those who love you alot, etc. Maybe you think this is abnormal, but it is so invisible and its the works of nature. This explains why some celebrities have mental/nervous breakdown and sought towards suicide and rehabilitation. Their lives are surrounded and scrutinized thereby with so many crazy fans, medias, haters, gossipers and paparazzi. Of course there are more factors to it and you may find out more anyway.

Seems like a glamorous life to most, but as a celebrity you have to handle many obstacles and tough decisions behind scene. And also to maintain psychology/spiritual/emotional balance within yourself.

I am not here to discourage anyone if you want to be a celebrity. But this is the fact we have to face, and you should have read alot from the news too. Not only celebrity, this could happen to anyone at any workplaces too.

PS: Suicide means to suffer, over again and again. So please do not be silly. We should be grateful to be able to be in this World to learn from various experiences. Love your life.

I pity those celebrities/common people who committed suicide. Such a waste of life. They can learn so much more if they'd continued to live.

Next time, I will try to post some photos here. I have taken tonnes of them.

Wish you well and happy!

For Photographers

2010-10-18T06:00:00.000+08:00

I have just added a page for you all to read. Please click on the link below.

http://slalomangel.blogspot.com/p/tfcds-paid-photoshoots.html

Your understanding and time will be appreciated. Thank you.

Ã View of My Bare Back

2010-10-05T14:16:00.001+08:00

I always want to see how does my back looks like. Finally I got somebody to take for me.

This is how it looks. I wish there's no picture on the back. ;) Stay happy!

Memories @ Previous House

2010-09-19T23:19:00.002+08:00

Finally, I am going to move house again. Recently, I'm spending most of my money on rental!

But this one will be a happy one not like the last moving.

I still miss the old house whereby the family is extremely nice!

Some of the memories...

They are very friendly and will always talk to me whenever they were at home. The uncle even showed me alot pictures he took during his work on his fishing yatch. So I got the chance to see giant fish taller than him!!!

The Auntie is actually also very nice at first. I don't know what made her changed... Maybe because she wanted a room badly for her son so that's why that affects her mood too.

They had always helped me whenever I misplace some of my things or forgot to take in laundry. I always feel bad about these.

They allowed me to go out and come back home at anytime, as long as I am not noisy.

The main owner would share food and herbal tea with me sometimes when he saw that I never go out for lunch, and or the weather was bad.

They showed alot trust in me by asking me to help them with something too.

Overall the previous house was a very happy house to live in... If only there's an extra room!

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The current one is not bad regarding the location and the size. But the Owners are weird. We have some communication breakdown recently. I don't know what are they thinking, they kept making it sounds like it's my fault for asking keys from them. Kept saying, "the elderly can't take it la. You must move la."

Hello!!! Owners DO NOT have the right to enter Tenant's room even though it's your own house. Unlesss, the tenant is not going to stay anymore. Still you have to ask for tenant's permission to allow visitors to view.

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I feel "sick" and lack of appetite recently. Never eat much for lunch but I feel so full during dinner. After eating feel like puking. It's been a few days... I used to love food so much. :'(

Yesterday's food intakes:
Breakfast - Chee Cheong Fun & Tea Milk
Lunch - Bread & water
Dinner - Bread, Beer & Lotsa water
Supper - Hor Fun, Tea Milk, Honey lemon, & water

I actually forgotten about dinner but thanks to Alvin who'd reminded me, that's why last minute stuffed myself with a bun.

Today's Food Intake:
Breakfast - Bread & Lotsa water
Lunch - Cheesey Bread & Bubble Tea
Dinner - Hong Kong Noodle, Tea Milk and Wheat Grass.

Today I actually forgotten about my handphone!!!!!!!!!!

OMG! Uploading this pic took me ages: See No Evil!

Night Job

2010-09-16T20:39:00.002+08:00

I was working at Clarke Quay last night with a girl. Fun but Tiring! We were trying our best to distribute the flyers to the people there. I planned to go home after that but failed as we did not finish on time. It was 1am. No bus!

So we went to have supper at Mac. I intended to take a taxi home after that...

But, instead I accompanied her till dawn as she were left alone since she is underage to enter the club... I can't just leave her in lurch ba.

Her friends were having fun, we were sleepily bored, trying to avoid those horny souls and drunkard minds who were trying to approach us.

Then there was a guy who I just knew through this girl. Only knew him for the first day and he wanted to talk to me over the phone for 3 hours. Say only la.

During the whole conversation, he is lucky that I never scold. If I have insufficient sleep, especially I slept only a few minutes when he called, I will definitely become grumpy and start scolding people. @$#%$^$

In the end, it lasted for only 35 minutes. I was trying to shake him off. Phew! Bad day when I woke up with bad eyes. Painful sia...

I dislike long-hour conversation. I prefer peaceful moments with myself. Maybe that's the reason why I am still single. ;) I'm aiming to have a relationship this year or next year. But what are the requirements for my man?

Kinda Hooked With Shows

2010-09-12T00:03:00.000+08:00

Can I do more fashion shows? Why do I want?

Because I am interested in pretty and interesting clothes, especially dresses since young. Mundane?

Ok, because I want to make use of my assets to market beautiful apparels and accessories.

What about, because I love to walk the fashion... means I have to invest in new wardrobe!

If you will sponsor me, I will help to market the products/services for you.

Catwalk and posing, I will do my best to practise. Oh yeah, with heels!

Support me, sponsor me ok?

Pre-Hong Kong

2010-09-04T08:55:00.000+08:00

Finally! Tomorrow I am going to fly over to Hong Kong! It's a shoot for commercial. If you thought its movie with the HK stars there, I wish too though. ;D

I was shortlisted since last month, it took 3 weeks to confirm everything. At first I thought it will be a local shoot, but they only informed me it's oversea by near end of August. So last minute! :\

We are going there for 3 days, but the shoot will only take 1 day to complete. So 2 days we are there to enjoy! ;)

All my packings are halfway through... I just realized 1 hour is enough to pack for my luggage. 4-6 hours are needed to pack my room.

So after coming back on 7th Sept, I'm going to rush down to rehearse for a show, and then next day move house and then showtime!

With all this, I have to postpone the time with my kids.

So Excited!

2010-08-29T16:13:00.000+08:00

I'm so excited! Looking forward to a new place. There are a few options right now.

Although there are so many unexpected changes during the Pageant, after my Birthday...

I must get my new house soon!!!

These 2 weeks or less, will leave this blog untouched.

Somebody asked me this question: "What is your blog for?"

This shows that I really have to make some changes... ;)

Post MSW 2010 Final

2010-08-24T12:44:00.000+08:00

Firstly, congratulations to all the winners for MSW 2010 and wish them best of luck!

Part of the scene from the final actually had appeared in my dream 2 days and 1 day before the actual thing. I remembered I saw Anusha, Jacelyn and Quenmantha in it. Maybe some other girls, but the image was quite clear only for a short while. I remembered I was tranquil in the dream.

I never won anything. Although disappointed with my performance, there's already a strong instinct on that day.

Frankly speaking, I do not have enough experience in all those cat walk, and posing. Not just these two, I have to improve in so many areas if I were to take part in this kind of contest, again. But I can't imagine that I were to do it all over again.

Throughout the process, I wholeheartedly thank all those people who have put in effort to help me and encourage me.

Everything lasted more than a month... and it is like a dream. All the girls, all the commotions, all the critics, all the fun we have, all the events, all the people...

All these lasted and here am I back to my normal life? Maybe not...

You may wonder what takes me so long to write something so short.

I am going to move house soon. And hope that it is the last time I move.

Religious Practise

2010-08-20T00:38:00.000+08:00

I can't believe that a person who is very faithful towards religious practise can be so heartless. She said she don't care what problems am I facing and wants me to move out soon. So I asked her, "Is this how you practise religious?"

And then she tried to sound kinder after that. "Ok, I can extent you moving date..."

So is this how I have to treat her? I felt quite guilty after I've said that.

I dislike to insult any religious practises as I know by heart one must practise to be unbias. But please do not step on my tail by being not so nice.

I am very open if you just want to share with me your knowledges.

This lady is SO MUCH older than me and shares the same religious that I love so much.

I feel so ashame when I see how she had treated her husband and others. I never comment about her behaviours, until today. Because I really cannot take it anymore. The husband always try to be a good husband, but I wish he can be firmer too.

What I've learnt from her:

When you are blindfolded by selfishness, what you did will start not to benefit others but only yourself and yourself. In the end you will start to harm... yourself. Because its only being kind and understanding we can be happier.

Also, we can be blunt at times as long as what we said benefits the forest rather than only a tree.

May unbiasity and compassions be with all.

A Lil' more on My Home

2010-08-16T01:04:00.000+08:00

I am very upset today because can't bear to leave the current house I'm in.

Hopefully the future house is better.

Trying to think on the brighter side, but where can I get the money to live a new home?

Time will tell.

She wants me to leave so their son can have a room.

The main owner wants me to stay because he already had a plan for his son - not to have a room at an early age.

In the end, there're fierce arguments.

I think some people are funny. When days are peaceful, they create "havocs" for themselves and others.

Due to all the desires, fears, selfishness and ego. There are so many negative emotions in this World churning and yearning to be alive.

After they got what they have wanted, they started to regret for their deeds and then pray to their own God or the Higer Ones so to remove their sins, or to be protected from any harms.

Even so we did something seems not right or totally wrong, I think we have to take the responsibilities on what we have done now and in the future. Life is a cycle.

Sometimes I wonder, when I sincerely send blessings and compassions towards many people whom I have met and known, even those who had harmed me, will they be able to receive? Throughout the life, I am still learning to forgive and forgo. Being grateful is better than to hold grudges.

Everyday I wake up, I always give thanks to the owner and family. In the end, I have to receive this fate. Maybe its time for me to move on to a new phase of life.

I will continue to give thanks to the family.

I think after writing this entry will allow me to sleep better. I can't stand the stress which is causing pimples to pop out recently.

Wishng all well and happy. Looking forward to the sunshine after rain.

Post Pre-Judging

2010-08-14T20:13:00.003+08:00

I should have read my whole blog before going for the Pre-Judging today, in the end I only read partially due to time constraint. Some of the things I have written are appropriate to answer the judges.

I hope judges had given us fair enough marks for our performances. Haha. Thinking back I just treat them like chatting with people I knew. Hard work for the judges. They have to sit there for 45 minutes X 3 rounds to listen to all girls answering to their questions. Thank you all judges!

Special thanks to some who have tried to help me through the whole event.

By the way, I realized my hips & thighs are getting slimmer. I have to thank Lumiere for the slimming services it has provided us. I just can't stop admiring how my big hips had shrunk! LOL
You may go to Lumiere Slimming International to receive their recent promotions and news. ;)

Thank you Lumiere. That's the reason why I can't stop staring at the mirror just now. Feel so thankful to the girls there for their great massaging skills. ;)

I will miss all the girls after this pageant. Must take good care of yourselves ok?

Some points to ponder:
I think even win or not does'nt matter, as long as we enjoyed the process and also improve ourselves throughout the pageant. If fate allow us to represent Singapore to compete, then we must go through the process again to be prepared to face a larger crowd! The most important is to constantly improving ourselves! I still want to win, yes! but the most important is still to enjoy and learn throughout the processes.

Because of the voting system, I started to realize there are so many friends and relatives out there who like me and so support me. Thank you all. Will never forget your kindness and generosity. I whole heartedly wish you all the best for wanting me to win.

To those who find me without a great look: Its alright that you tell me that. I still have the courage to take part in this pageant, its because I want to become a great inspirator. Never let people words crash you down. This pageant is an open eye to me though!

Check out the Wan Bao(Chinese Newspaper) and The New Paper next few days. Some of the girls were being interviewed just now.

May everybody be well and happy.

PS: I felt very disappointed at first when I nearly tripped and fell just now during the catwalk session due to some accidents. I still thank myself for being able to gain back composure after that. Will I be penalized for that accident?

Happy Birthday Singapore!

2010-08-09T13:39:00.000+08:00

After listening to others, I realised what do I need to improve on. Being a plain girl before entering the pageant, I have alot difficulties with make up for stage & press.

Even if I do make up, they are always quite plain and natural. That's my principal since the past: if I'm gonna do something to my face, always be natural.

I've learnt that in pageant is totally different. You have to be more daring with colours and the amount you used.

All thanks to the organisers and some girls who have helped me along. Thank you so much.

Anyway, today is a special day for every one in Singapore!

Happy Birthday Singapore! I love you Singapore!

Let us stop complaining and appreciate how this small island has given us so many great things since the past till now and into the future!

Happy National Day to all my Dearest friends! Thank you for everything and wish you all the best!

Himalaya Herbals Skin Care

2010-08-07T11:36:00.000+08:00

Most of the us from MSW 2010 are using Himalaya Herbals Skin Care products.

All products from Himalaya Herbals consist of natural herbs, so support Go-Green!

I would like to share some of their products I have used with positive results!

Acne-N-Pimple Cream
I have introduced this product during the press. It is one of the first few products I used from Himalaya Herbals.

Have sudden outbreaks today, and applied this miracle cream to lessen the redness! I have the cream since last year, and wishing so badly I discovered this product earlier to prevent scarring.

I've learnt this product from The CLEO Beauty Hall of Fame 2009. Click Here to See their Awards.

Deep Cleansing Astringent Lotion

I am extremely grateful to have this product. After used, I felt my face so much cleaner with tightened pores.

Almond & Cucumber Peel-Off Mask

New Best friend. Why? After using for the first time, my skin improves tremendously!

Under Eye Cream

Another best friend! It won't irritate eyes even if you wear contact lens! Soothe eye puffiness, it's the Saviour of my panda-eyed days!

Purifying Neem Face Wash

It is so gentle and leave skin moist after wash. Best of all it is anti-bacteria and helps to control acne problems.

Gentle Exfoliating Walnut Scrub

Some of you may be intimidated by Walnut Scrub. Actually it does'nt clog pores at all! After using it once by rubbing onto my face gently, I feel my skin alot smoother and glower.

If you want to know more about their products, please click on the link below.

Himalaya Herbals Singapore

PS: The prices of their products are very reasonable, even for students.
Wishing you a healthy, beautiful and glowing skin always!

Press Conference

2010-08-07T00:19:00.001+08:00

Most girls woke up between 5am and 6am just now so to get ready for the Press Conference!

I was nervous and very excited during the conference. I want to be more confident!

Many thanks to all who have made this conference a successful one.

We should be grateful to all reporters who were there too.

They have to interview so many people and do research before coming. I admire their confidence and spirit too.

Working with film and photographers, they create awareness through publicity.

Now, pray hard, whatever come out from the press will be positive. Next post shall be on Himalaya Herbals products I have used.

Be More, Do More!

2010-08-05T13:00:00.000+08:00

Be more than a coach.

Be more than a tutor.

Be more than an assistant.

Be more than a participant.

Be more than what you are right now.

Doing more than what you need to do.

It is the best way to be happy and enjoy working.

I always feel accomplished to motivate students.

Even though shoutings are needed, it is worthwhile to go beyond in order for them to understand.

Be it kind methods or strict methods,

I will use both for them to learn.

I won't do anything to please my students.

I will do anything to make them learn well.

Make them burn and soothe them down.

Soothe them down and show them care.

Be their friends but be strict too.

Teens need care but need strict coach.

They always follow what adults do.

You be a monkey they follow.

You speak philosophy, they respect.

You shower praises, they enjoy.

I am a strict coach.

I always want best knowledges for my students.

I always need many ways to coach different students.

Each student is unique.

Do not always stick to the same old method, but your basics must be there.

Surprising Votes

2010-08-04T23:20:00.000+08:00

Frankly speaking, I am still very surprise to have my voting scale shot up from 1030 to 4590 last few days. Thank you to all who have voted! I am so grateful to have great friends like you. You make me feel so touched.

Although I am not sure who have voted so generously, I would still like to thank you very much.

Voting will only end on 20 Aug 2010, 5pm. 15 days to go. Please ask your friends to vote too. Appreciate your kindness and generosity.

I am Contestant 17 - Lee Chew Lian

http://votewsg.ermworld.org/misssg/index.php

It's alright if you can't vote. Just help me to spread the words around. Thank you!

MSW 2010 Voting

2010-07-31T21:20:00.001+08:00

The amount of your votings will affect the final results. Those with the highest vote get to Top 10 immediately.

I am contestant number 17 - Lee Chew Lian.

http://votewsg.ermworld.org/misssg/index.php

It will take only 1 minute of your time to vote.

Thank you for your time and generosity!

Money can be earned back!

All votings are voluntary.

If you are students or without any cards but wish badly to vote for your favourite Miss Singapore 2010,

You may visit

http://beautiesbox.com/www2/latest-news/miss-singapore-world-2010-vote/

Happy Birthday Boss!

2010-07-31T12:11:00.001+08:00

I was disturbed in the morning after only 4 hours of sleep.

My eyes are burning with pain now. I have to work and attend event later.

Last night was boss's birthday. I don't know what makes me agreed to go clubbing with my colleagues when I knew I have to work the next day. It was already 1am.

Before that we were singing our heart out. Then I was asked to dance. Fun but I actually had forgotten most part of the dance steps. Such a long time since I practised it. Anyway, dancing is fun!

Happy Birthday, Boss. I am glad that you'd enjoyed yourself so much.

MSW 2010

2010-07-30T12:19:00.000+08:00

Congratulations to the winners!!!

So far the results for Miss Singapore World 2010: Miss Charming: 7 - Marilyn, Miss Fitness: 19 - Hui Shan, Miss Personality: 2 - Krizzia, Miss Alcova: 12 - Jacelyn..

PS: Alcova has fantastic pizza with generous cheese toppings and slightly crispy dough. The people there are extremely friendly too!

If you are interested in the next event Charity Dinner cum Final for MSW 2010 on 21 August 2010, please contact me.

Hang On! Slalom Angel.

2010-07-29T00:42:00.000+08:00

Almost everyday 7am to 10pm, or 8am to 10 pm, or 9am to 9pm. Only one day is 4pm to 10pm.

In short, I am working everyday. Some, whole day. Some, part of a day.

Normally breaks were spent in maintaining, grooming and gym.

Fatigue visited me and caused myself to doze off on the train.

Why am I working so hard?

I don't want to waste myself away.

I feel grateful to have works to do. I must hang on until the whole course of lessons ends. By then, I can relax a little more.

Thanks for all the moral support from friends, students, parents, cousins and others. If not, I don't know how can I pull myself together with such an hectic schedule. Thank you for all the understanding too!

Suntan Incident at Sentosa

2010-07-27T23:03:00.004+08:00

I am having moodswings recently. I feel a strong current flowing in my heart since Saturday and I am still not sure what is causing the wrath.

Until today, then I know the reason behind.

I was at Sentosa to sun-tan so I can have my fairer skin tanner and to look presentable in Bikinis. I finally have a firmer abs all thanks to Ben.

It's firmer only. Still not define.

While I was enjoying my sun bathing, a stranger approached me and sit just beside me. I was shocked! When he asked the first question, the first few words that were in my mind: "No, you better get off!"

So he thought I don't mind that he sit beside me when I say No. Actually he asked: "Do you mind that I sit beside you?" I was only clear after I recover from shock.

At last, I sort of chase him away. Scary!

Alright, it is better to go sun tanning with friends. Make sure you choose a spot that is with people around. Luckily, I was near a bar.

Ok, got to rest. Sneezing non stop... Wish everybody all blues gone!

A Simple Life

2010-07-24T01:20:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, I yearn to be detatched from all worldly pleasures and lead a simple life.

With high standards in today's life, it is hard for people to resist working hard/earning more to enjoy life.

I found myself living almost like a nun for 6 months last year. I enjoyed the process. Only some works during certain days and enough for me to survive and even save! No shopping and I am always at home sleeping or meditating or exercising when free. Less internet and TV too. Spending on phone, food and travel was like only $200 plus, necessaties was $100 per 3-4 months.

If life can be that simple... and continues.

No relationships troubles, no money problems, no crisis in our health, no worries, no need to worry about children, no cravings and desires, no sins, and no obstacles.

In the end, I found out that it is not a time for me to become a nun totally.

Parents are getting older, younger siblings are not being well taken care of. Why are all these happening?

Although saw alot of problems coming out, I have learnt to be independent too. The experience is worthwhile and I learnt alot. I am upset is because I am worried about my younger siblings. They are still so young, and they have to go through life without much company by their busy parents.

My mum is always busy with works because she is very responsible and she want us to have good life.

All I know is to tear for her and many times, I always pray for her a much better life.

Many great things about her; simple, courageous, hardworking and responsible. It was very hard to realize all these traits when she always nag at me in the past. Haha!

I Am Not That Fit

2010-07-19T23:44:00.000+08:00

One day I visited the gym, and found out that I am not that very fit.
I was a skater. But not now, so this contributed fat to my body mass.
All my muscles burning fire and aching unbearably.

This makes me wonder how did I manage to stay slim? So much fat in my body.
Many people kept telling me my figure is good.
Yet, I am always unsatisfied. I need to do something before I become fat.

Perfectionist me.

I still love skating afterall. More relaxing than gym. ;D

I Want to Improve!

2010-07-10T23:58:00.000+08:00

When I am disappointed with myself, I will search for ways to improve myself.

I wish to become perfectionist in everything I do, in the end I am still not satisfied.

I wish to accomplish a task from start till end and yet people viewed me as stubborn or just polisher.

The world is so contradicting.

Sometimes I am a good girl, yet people said I am bad.

Sometimes I am hardworking and wish to help, yet people said I am a troublemaker.

Sometimes I am tired and wish to rest, yet people said I am plain lazy with no drive.

Maybe in the end I have not done well enough.

Maybe I am to live in this state till I am awake.

I really wish to improve. I want to improve. When can I?

Everyday. Every Hour. Every Minute. Every Second.

There are endless opportunities for us to improve.

In the end, what people said are just empty words,

So I must be stronger than their empty words.

In the end, what people think may affect us,

So I must be stronger than their affecting thoughts.

In order for change, every one of us must be strong.

In order for improvements, we must create peace with ourselves.

Only with still mind, then we will be able to gain wisdom.

With still mind, we find peace.

Already Back!

2010-07-08T00:50:00.000+08:00

I'm already back. Being busy with stuff for the pass few days earning bucks.

Tomorrow not so busy day. Next few weeks going to be extremely busy with coaching, tuitions, shoots and also other works. I don't know why did I ended up doing shoots... It's not a big deal. I am still learning and most of my photos just look so unnatural that I dare not post. I will still post them somewhere else, happy searching.

Anyway, the photos for holiday at Genting (all unedited) are on my Facebook account. Hope you enjoy viewing. Next time you won't have the chance to see all these unedited photos once I upgrade my laptop. ;)

I will try to do photoblogging on Genting. So looking forward to it. The trip is so memorable!

A Great Somebody!

2010-06-27T22:00:00.002+08:00

I wish to become a great sister!
I wish to become a great teacher!
I wish to become a great coach!
I wish to become a great daugther!
I wish to be a great learner!
I wish to be a great inspirator!

But how? Will I be given the chances? Will I grab the right opportunities that come by?

Have you ever came across that you always meet obstacles whenever you start to venture into something new or anything you are doing now?

What are those obstacles? I started to realized the obstacles are just another illusions in life. They are actually life lessons for us to learn from them. They are not just for us to overcome.

Indeed., I started to feel the happiness of being myself after the realization. The feeling is fantastic and unexplanable.

Somehow I want to do something for the world, but how? Still exploring several options that I can venture in.

Follow the flow. That's it!

Thoughts for last few days:
Today: Do you know that to care for all beings all start from compassion towards our Earth? Money won't work anymore if our Earth is destroyed. You will say, "Oh, I know that!" Do you understand what is compassion? Donating money is only part of it so to assist in the related programmes, etc.
The most important is what are you thinking inside your mind? So did you think compassion today?

26 June: Making friends ain't for the sake of having more friends. Making friends to share and learn are in fact correct. Rather than "competing to have more friends than your friends" or just for your own interest, Choose your friends wisely.

23 June: Slalom Angel started to realize that everything in life are illusions. It is another start to become positive because you will be able to give up things that are illusions easily. The real only survive in self's mind and heart.

Blogskin Changed!

2010-06-26T23:42:00.002+08:00

I love simplicity. I also love colours. Fell in love with this colour combination. Thank you blogger.

First Aid Exam Ended!

2010-06-24T20:31:00.000+08:00

Finally, Exam ended for the First Aid Course at Saint John Ambulance.

It was like finally! I am able to squeeze my time for this important course too. We all enjoyed the fun with our lecturers. They are all so humourous!

One of them 77 and another 83. Salute to them for having such a meaningful golden age sharing all their priceless experiences with us. Best of all they don't look their age!

The main lecturer, Mr Chia, he's like a grandfather to us though. He is so sincere and so willing to answer many of my questions after and during class.

"Old man already, so got alot to say. Hope you don't mind." This is the sentence he always says. Haha. He cracked alot of jokes throughout the course and we laughed like mad. Hahaha!!! I also find him very cute. Always laughing and smiling.

Best of all, I make new friends throughout the course, if not I will be a loner. Luckily I'm not too introvert when getting to meet new people.

I will encourage all of you to take first aid. You won't know what will happen to people around you one day. Like how one day my uncle collapse suddenly without any signs and passed away... That's why I took it seriously especially during the practical.

I will miss the lecturers there.

Life is So Exciting!

2010-06-21T23:23:00.001+08:00

I can say life recently is very exciting. Not much money coming in, in fact spent alot recently. I have gained alot of different exposure and experiences. Met many different kind of people and even went through those nasty people which all of us difinitely will not want to meet! Luckily, I only communicate with them via E-communications!

New thoughts keep generating everyday, every moments.

It is not about how to earn more money like most of the riches out there do.
It is not about how to plan another bomb or war like all the terrorists out there do.
It is not about how to plot some politics here and there so to gain at others expenses.
It is not about how to master a skill or studies so next time can earn big bucks or fame.
It is not about how to gain more monetary award through less effort.
It is not about how to just survive.
It is not about how to please someone who is more superior than us.

Everyday should be all about learning and positive exposures.

Sometimes let go of something, you may gain something in another way.

Anyway, nothing wrong if you want to gain materials as long as you do not harm others in any ways through thought, speech and action. This can be hard for most of us if we are overcome by our negative emotions.

Woo Hoo... Life is so exciting!!!

Today, I criticized myself many times, but I'm on cloud nine since early morning. This is because I want to learn. Also thanks to Daniel who had helped me along. :)

Happy Slalom Angel now.

Out Of Sudden

2010-05-24T23:09:00.000+08:00

Out of sudden, I yearn to further my studies.

Out of sudden, I have an urge to take up driving licence.

Out of sudden, I wish to try out new sports.

Out of sudden, I wish that I know a third and forth language.

Sometimes it is very frustrating when out of sudden, I am so keen in doing so many things. It is not the first time though.

I am going to start saving for some of the new goals. Going to work doubly hard. Gambate!

Ok, before that, get a break. So I will be able to strive better.

Farewell To Dr Goh Keng Swee

2010-05-23T17:02:00.002+08:00

Just witnessed the thing few hours back on Channel News Asia.

Sending my condolence to the families silently.

Listening to speeches on how he had been a great soul to Singapore.

Tears just roll out from the brim of my eyes uncontrollably.

I am such an emotional creature.

That is,

I need a break. I feel sick after the whole event.

Peace In Mind

2010-05-22T14:22:00.001+08:00

I have not enough sleep.

I feel like cursing.

My Heart is heavy.

I can feel the pumping.

I heard a beep.

Face that I never seen.

Since it starts to ring.

I hate to pick.

I want to end.

This madness in life.

A torment I have through.

I wish to end.

Start a new journey.

With peace in mind.

- Slalom Angel

Tons Of

2010-05-20T23:40:00.003+08:00

Tons of clothes = Not enough space and time.

Now all of them are back to square; instead of being dumped inside gigantic bags, now they are lying on my floor. :'( I need help. Time to clear those unwanted.

Tons of shoes = More hassles and less space.

Within a day, I have 5 more pairs of shoes - only one pair were bought by me. I don't know how most glamorous ladies can live by with tonnes of shoes. Even with more than 5, I find them too excessive. I did love shoes alot in few years back due to work related needs. Recently, all I need is sneakers or slippers and I can get started with work! That is skating, tuition and other ad-hocs!
Now I am not sure about the future.

Tons of needs and wants = More money spent and lesser time.
I just spent more than a hundred dollar in a day due to buying the so-called needs. If I have the choice, I won't buy them. :'(
I will spend them on food and other necessities.
Plus, I have to spend a great long time if I am going to do shopping. Wasted alot of time.
All my hard-earned money... gone in a blink. >_<
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It's a very great experience afterall for today. I never know I am open minded. Exhausted. Bye.

Choices: Up To You

2010-05-18T17:09:00.000+08:00

I was slacking the whole day!!!

That was yesterday.

I am currently stucked.

Stucked with the decision makings on which path should I take.

In front of me, there are so many routes that I can take.

Choices; there are no right or wrong. Below I am going to share with you what I have realized during the past few years. It is all from my heart.

There is no obligation that you must believe or follow every words that I have written.
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Once you take on the route that you have chosen, you should be prepared to learn the lessons of whatever the journey will bring you while along the way.

When you started to realize that the path you have taken seems to go wrong halfway, it is time to face the challenges and solve the problems along the way.

It is not a time to look back and think that you have chosen the wrong path(s). You will make things worse.

This is because whichever path(s) you chose, you will still come upon some challenges and obstacles. But, they might be different from what you are currently facing.

Why not change our attitudes towards what we have chosen? It is always up to us on whether we want to continue or to quit and take a new route.

Now, to continue or to quit is not going to be right or wrong too. It is time for you to move on to the next phase of your life lessons.

Sometimes when you quit, you will open yourself to more opportunities.

Sometimes when you continue, you will move on to create for yourself more opportunities from the same environments and situations that you are currently in.

In conclusion, how you live your life depends vastly on you yourself. It is not the outside environment or other beings as long as you did not come under their influential.

If you want to choose be happy, go for it by concentrating on the inside of yourself, not merely from the outside factors or materials living.

Same goes to healing your broken hearts.

Most of us are destined to learn from broken relationships. By having a new sweetheart immediately after a break-up won't help. But, by mixing with great friends and having more self-reflections might help to heal faster. It also depends on whether you want to open yourself up to talk about the whole lot failure, which not all of us can do it easily.

I hope if you are in agony or in dilemas right now, these words will be able to assist you a little to step forward in life.

If you are living joyfully and enjoying life, I congratulate you. Hope you will help those in agony and continue to have a great life.

Life is great!

Sweet Treats

2010-05-15T22:30:00.000+08:00

Finally got my room cleaned thoroughly! Don't have the time to boast about it yesterday. :)

Need to redo my nails. All chapped and scratched. I have the excuse to use my nail enamel, again!

Why am I so vain nowadays?

Just wanna make myself joyful and feel good.

Down with so many ugly sentiments and incidents, its time for me to be pampered with treats.

The best thing is to get out of town. Wish to do it by June Holidays when most of my students will go for holidays too.

The only thing I'm worried now is an audition. What outcome will I get?

------- Whatever will be, will be.

The only thing I can do is to pray hard, play hard, work hard, rest hard.

Time for wink wink soon.

Look Good Tomorrow!

2010-05-13T18:43:00.000+08:00

Since I still have half an hour now, start to plan on things to be done by tomorrow. All my plans to clean up my home sweet home were smashed due to last minute tuitions and I am outside right now waiting for the next tuition. Doubt I can go back and start doing within such a meagre timeline.

I am burn out. Yearning to have a big break soon!

Glooming.

I need it.

It's been a long time since I gave myself a little treat on my nails. Most of them are disfigured due to sand works.

My face sucks, with all the dead skins and zits are popping out due to stress. How should I get them glowing with health?

And I have to look good tomorrow. It is so last minute.

Still, am looking forward to it!

Messy and Dirty Room

2010-05-12T16:47:00.002+08:00

The demand for tuitions increased tremendously over the past few weeks and I was extremely busy. Most of the time, my day will start from 7am to 9.30pm, including those random skating lessons. Sometimes I felt so exhausted that I can only be awake at noon time and rush out of home for the next lesson.

After moving into my new house, I have not yet cleaned and tidied my room which is now incredibly messy. Full of grime laid on the floor motionless. I felt so sleepy each time when I tried to clear them. Worst comes to worst, there is no broom in the house. I have to use their vacuum cleaner instead which I am not used to it.

To some, its a luxury to use vacuum cleaner, but why use it when we can save electricity by using a broom instead?

I concluded that they use vacuum cleaner to prevent wastage of water due to mopping chores. Or, to prevent dusts from dispersing about anywhere. Quite reasonable but getting my floor mopped will be the best treat for my room. I can imagine the fragrant of Dettol lingering in it now. Awww~

It is incredibly messy with all the products that I had accumulated them on my study desk. Assessment books and worksheets, several water bottles, my daily breakfast, keys, lenses, text books, big box of stationeries, chargers, and laptop accessories, blah blah blah. There are more which I am too embarrassed to list them here. I just need to get them in my sight because I use them daily.

Okay, maybe mine's not the worse scenario. :)

Finally, it's a full off-day for me to relax. I should be able to get a fresh cleaned room by tomorrow and go for a short getaway with a good book!

Life is great!

Pig's Liver

2010-05-05T15:02:00.000+08:00

A few days back, I went onto a weighing machine and weighed myself unknowingly. I was quite shocked to see that my weight went down by 2kg. I feel that I have to gain the weight back, so I must start drinking milk every day and night from now onwards...

Maybe lost them due to stress, I am not so sure.

I just got diarrheoa because my digestive system is not used to the Yomeishu. This year I am very prone to diarrheoa so I have to be careful with what I consumed nowadays. Anyway the Yomeishu was a gift from a friend. :)

I just had mini wok for lunch, one of my big time favourite! Bagus if there are pigs' livers in the soup! Fresh good pigs' livers are not so bitter and I love the slightly bitter taste accompanied with sweet fluffy crushed with the glycerol and being churned in my mouth to formed a paste-like stuff, then it will be pushed down slowly through the oesophagus.

In order not to be choked the slightly sticky stuff, it is best to have a mouthful soup after consuming. Sliced livers are of great taste when at 80 - 90% cooked. If they are 100% cooked or overcooked, the protein will become stringent and you will find it unpleasant to ingest.

Having stir-fried livers with porridge is also another enjoyment to me. I love savouring the semi-bitter-sweet meaty stuff stir fried with ginger & spring onion in my porridge. Yummy!

What are the benefits of consuming pigs' livers?

They are packed with iron and vitamin Bs so they function to increase red blood cells inside your body. Those with anemia are encouraged to have them occassionally. Females who are going through Menstruation should take have them too to replace red blood cells lost during the period. . ;)

Please take take not that, it is not adviseable to take pigs' livers too often as they are high in cholesterol. So eat them in moderate amount occassionally! Ok?

Wish you healthy and shining everyday!

At New House

2010-05-01T22:19:00.000+08:00

I feel like going to bed right now after being awake since 7am with only 5 hours of sleep. Just now worked with half mind closing down... Usually, I will feel very energetic while working. Today is just too hectic.

Very early morning, I forced myself to be awake while waiting for a friend to move all our stuffs. Finally got the money back. This owner still want to hold the deposit back just because of his damnit heater spoilt which we only used for very few times.

Whatever, I am so exhausted after long day work.

Am I going to make it for Taiwan? In dilemma. We left only 2 months...

Felt like I am being kicked around like football. :'(

Ok. Sleep.

Updates 27 April 2010

2010-04-27T23:56:00.000+08:00

3 more days, its end of April.

Throughout,.I realized many new lessons learnt. I became a very strict person because of several reasons.

I am tired. Exhausted recently after the Ubin trip. I don't know why. Maybe I jumped too much.

Will update again during May.

I wonder whether should I put down everythings and go to Genting? I don't know yet.

I am tired. Good night.

Qin Chun Yan WFSC09

2010-04-05T21:58:00.000+08:00

She's one of the lady that etched in my mind. I remembered watching her routine years back and she'd improved alot with many additional advance tricks.

Although some parts were missed due to nervousness, I think she'd done a great job in her one-foot spin (general name) and screw.

I think it's better not to wear short tee shirt, as it's not very nice to show your partial ass to the audience or judges unless you wear stockings like figure skaters do.

I don't know what the judges think, but I'm sure all the guys enjoyed, which is very normal.

Su Fei Qian WFSC09

2010-04-05T21:14:00.005+08:00

Su Fei Qian - Winner for WFSC 2009 under Junior Ladies Category. The concept for her performance is what I've yearned to see in slalom. Even though it looks like "figure skating", it suits her music and she still managed to perform many graceful moves through cones, along with different hand movements.

Whatever it is, different people different style, that's why it's called FREESTYLE Slalom.

I love you girl. Keep up the great routine.

Moronic Incidents

2010-04-04T17:45:00.007+08:00

I was having extreme stomachache. Am fine now after rest. It could be due to continuous working and moving house without sufficient rest. I have not been taking regular meals for the past seven days. Most of my pants are getting looser now.

Some moronic incidents below: Haha <- how ironic.

Warning: Some parts of this entry are written in an angry tone. No offence.

A lady got on my nerves. She is not happy with the new house.

I had spent most of my time to search for a place for the whole family to move in before the deadline. Next, I was given a fucking attitude from her when I was helping mum with some work. Just because she's not satisfied with me or the new house?

Hey, do you know how much time I have spent to get this house out of 8 houses? It is NOT one day effort, ok?

I was thinking, if she's not happy with that house she might as well move out to live on her own. WTH.

I had spent as much time as I can to help them to move house, and she never.

The excuse she gave: "Cannot get off day."

Well, I am very satisfied with their new home because it is very comfortable and peaceful. Despite her attitude, I will visit them again. Bleahz.

Would you place dirty laundry in your bedroom?

A moron demand us to do that. Fucked up big time. Please use some common sense.

I scolded a little girl for not doing her homework.

It is not the first time that she never do her homework. She even throw away assessment which she dislikes to do.

Sorry girl, I have to do this in order for you to maintain your grades and your mum gave me the permission.

I sounded extremely enraged when I lectured her that whole morning. Damnit. I think her mum caned her after I left. Poor girl.

A few strangers kept calling me the past few days.

That's why I hate to publicize my number on the internet. It is very irritating especially while I'm working. I was worrying whether if they are somebody whom I know and trying to create some pranks or what.

However, I ignored all. If you really want to talk to me, please be sincere, thanks.

I hate it when there are so many unknown miss calls and never leave a message at all. WTF.

Announcement - 24 Mar 2010

2010-03-24T13:56:00.002+08:00

My Dear Friends & Readers,

I am going to disappear from this blog for a while. I have to do alot of learning, and at the same time teaching and coaching. Also moving and clearing my old room, furnishing my new room and many many stuff to deal with the new room.

I will only allow myself to get online for hours after April Fool day. Self-discipline. This is why I can disappear from the online world for a very long period of time.

Please take note that I will still check email the first thing when I woke up which will only spend me my 10-15 minutes.

Hope you have enjoyed reading my previous entries!

Thank you.

Best Regards,
Slalom Angel ♥

8 more days & I'm moving house

2010-03-22T23:35:00.001+08:00

Finally, I saw the new features and created 2 new pages for my website. Can you spot it? It is at your right hand side. Please stay tuned for more pages that will be coming up.

It will be so much convenient to advertise my services there than on the blog itself whereby the entry will be pushed back after the new entries are out.

I will be living on my own soon, to create my own adult identity. Even though I am upset to leave my family, but at last I will have my own private space. I knew I have to be more independent. I am sure that this is not the right or wrong choice.

It is a new learning process for me in this life. It may be a great opportunity for me to live under a non-parental influence which might stopped me from progressing into what I intend to venture. I have alot of plans yet to be executed which was at first hindered.

At first I feared after I chose to move out. I managed to overcome the fear after persuading myself with several advantages and tell myself I can overcome & remove obstacles that might be lining up on my journey. Rather than escaping from the fact that you are fearful why not dissolve the fear?

Apart from fear, I will miss sharing food and things with my sisters.

8 more days to go. There are still many things awaiting for my attention. Argh!

Improved!!!

2010-03-22T00:38:00.004+08:00

I am so delighted to see my students for slalom skating improved alot even after a long break!!!

To a boy: "Your postures improved alot after so much of my "nagging" in the past.:D Now finally you are able to progress faster!!!"

To a girl: "I'm glad that you are doing more and gaining more interest! Your progressions are getting faster too!!!"

To a man: "You have followed what I've said and practiced at home, and your improvements are dramatic!!!"

Looking forward to see you all improve again!!!

When a student improves because of what I've done, I felt so accomplished. It's more than just coaching slalom or skating etc. For tuition, I also want to do more than tuition. It can be quite tiring but worth it!

It's all about influencing life skills, experiences, knowledge and enjoyments to all the lovely children.

All thanks to the lovely threesome who've shared with me the lovely life as children.

All thanks to a five minutes wanderer who inspired me to share, so to benefit more people.

All thanks to my mentors who have inspired me to be inspired.

We won't know what kind of evil deeds will people around us attempt to do to harm us. As long as we have done or attempt nothing evil to harm others in this life, we will still be fine after going through all the obstacles that were created from the evil deeds.
Remember: There will always be beautiful sunshine awaiting for us after rain!!!

Sentosa Sand Scuptures

2010-03-19T01:02:00.000+08:00

I went to Sentosa just now and it was raining heavily.

So I took the tram around the island to be "soaked" in the rainy ambience.

I passed by Palawan Beach, and was mesmerized by the exhibition with a few sand sculptures!

There were a few learners trying to carve out Dinosaurs. The skin. The skeleton seems much challenging!

According to the person in charge, its going to end by this weekends, which is the sooner the better. If you are interested to learn sand sculpting, do visit Sentosa Palawan Beach 11am-6pm by Saturday. It's free! If you are in overseas, I will try to take photoes for you to view. There's some below.

The dino is gigantic! I think larger than my size. Haha! Never take any photo of dino yet because not completed...

Below are from the exhibition:

Below is my favourite :)

Side view:

It's better to see the real thing than photoes!

CNY 2010

2010-03-03T20:25:00.007+08:00

I was busy with work just before Chinese New Year that deals with Valentine's Day. Most of the people will be visiting relatives during the first day. I was still busy with the sales of flowers so to ensure they are available to people who can't get them as most florsits are closed. At the same time managed to visit Grandpa for an hour to wish him well and healthy.

Second day, the place I always look forward to visit is my cousins' house. Many goodies, card games, Karaoke systems, and friendly people. At time's there will be foreign visitors, all so fun! At the end, they will usually fill our bags full of goodies. I think the little ones always grin as sweet treats come by.

Third day, boss's place. Buffet!!! Card games, Wii games, tatoo, toys and adorable kids. Nowadays, I really find kids loveable even if they are naughty and playful(like some of my students :P).

Forth day, rest.

Fifth day, start work with very naughty and playful young student, then went to cousin's place.

Sixth day, another boss's place to receive Ang Bao.

It's a very meaningful & unforgettable New Year for me with several rare experiences, and with like-minded people during the celebrations. It's very different from the past few years. It is also the year when I received the most Ang Bao monies ever in my whole 20+ years of living in this world.

After the festives period, there are many major changes which I could'nt cope at first. It was'nt easy for me to accept so many sudden and bad news after the festive season. Especially those that might affect somebody's life. That explained why I was so overwhelmed with anxiousness...

I was so relieved only recently when she was discharged from hospital.

Let bygones be bygones. There're many things we have to let go in order to move on.
To force is not happiness. If it's ours it will come to us one day.
Be it sooner or later, it does'nt matter.
As long as we follow the dictates of conscience, and follow the flow of nature.

Karaoke Session

2010-02-02T21:09:00.000+08:00

4 hours of KTV session is equal to hoarse voice the next day.

We all sang from 8pm to 12 midnight, and I just don't feel like leaving. IT'S NOT ENOUGH!!! Can we ALL come again?

What's wrong with me? So far, I won't have enough for every KTV sessions, too many songs that I love to sing even if it's to repeat (but I just can't remember the lyrics).

So next, we are going to "bust" the Karaoke system in our cousins' house.

Some points I noted while K:
Want to sing, let the rest know & make sure you sing out as loud as possible.
Don't want to sing, make the microphone get lost but stay to listen if you don't need the loo.
Don't know what's that song, listen and sing if you know.
Don't know the song, skip or force your buddies to sing instead (some of them if you don't force them to sing they will complain you are a mic-snatcher or a mic-hold-too-long after the session).
Out of tune, heck care la or tune the music to highest volume then sing along.

Many times, some of the unfamiliar titles are songs we are very familiar (actually). I really hate it when the mic is left unattended during K. Com'on it's a time and very rare whereby you can sing your heart & throat out. Why leave the mic alone? Ok la, maybe you don't know the song. Usually I will like to pass the mic to those who know the song.

Hope you will enjoy your K sessions with whoever you go with. To me, being a mic-holder or mic-snatcher or mic-passer is better than mic-put-away or mic-denier.

But if you really have phobia with mic, then nevermind. Still, wish you enjoy your "Listen to K" sessions. :)

Hair & Scalp

2010-01-24T14:55:00.009+08:00

My hair is getting longer.

Hey girls, do you find long hair better than short hair for you? While it depends on individual style and preference. Some guys look good in long hair for example; Ken Zhu Xiao Tian.

After trying out different hairstyle since I was borned, I've found that longer hair suits me more than those short ones. Reason? I've got slightly broad jaw bones so I need a longer hair to cover them and I won't be mistaken for being a guy while being on the streets.

I remembered I had short hair during most of my younger days until I reached Secondary Three, I'd grown my first lock of long hair. Most girls got their long tresses when they were younger than 5 years old...

During poly days, when I was as skinny as Twiggy, I got my tresses cut again so to minimize the hassle to care for the locks. Sometimes I felt like wearing baggy jeans and oversize T-shirt and went to school. Guess what? Pretty girls ogled at me. When I looked back at them they will smile bashfully and turned their eyes away, and peeked at me again when I walked away.

The reactions of guys? I remembered there's a group of haggard looking young men from my poly spitted at me. Lucky for me I reacted fast enough to prevent my clothes from being stained. Gosh, I don't even know them.

So I started to make more girl-friends.

One day, I went to the ladies. There's no one inside, minutes later a lady came in but rush out again when she saw me. Oops!

Conclusion: I can look as handsome as a guy if I want to. :D

In the end, I'm still a normal lady. Please don't be mistaken that I'm a lesbien. Frankly speaking, there's nothing wrong with being a lesbien too.

I'm glad that my hair is now long enough. It's natural dark golden brown in colour thanks to long period hopping around under the sun.

Still I need to take care of my long hair especially having to go under the sun frequently. I don't use conditioners daily, because my scalp is sensitive to conditioners. So I will shampoo my hair daily and apply hair treatments once every 3 to 5 days.

Shampoo daily is recommended for those whose jobs require them to venture outdoor frequently as hair trap dirt's and oil. Normally I will rinse hair with cold water only every morning to refresh after a long night sleep. It helps by keeping me awake for the rest of the day with a cuppa tea.

Hair Care Products that Slalom Angel used:
Shampoo --------
Totonku(s): Silkpro COLORVIBRO
Treatment ------

My hair will become smoother and bouncier after each treatment. Don't even need a hairdryer. The effect can last a few days.

To accommodate the hair after washed, I will use a wooden comb when hair is dry, and rounded tips brush when hair is wet. Both help to improve blood circulations on scalps.

Ways to care/treat for your hair & scalp depends on individual conditions too.

This article is to share with you how I normally treat my hair. I will be happy that you share your ways around too. :) You should approach hair professionals if you are interested to know more about your hair conditions and ways to care. Thank you for reading.

40 Years old Slalom Skater

2010-01-21T19:20:00.004+08:00

This post is to welcome a 40 years old man who took up slalom skating from me recently.

Don't play play. If you think he's too old for slalom, you are extremely wrong! He's fit, flexible and accepted my corrections readily during lessons.

Age is not a problem, but health can be. I hope that you will take care of your body especially when taking part in any sports.

My focus is on inline freestyle slalom. I've wrote some advises on http://slalomangeltips.blogspot.com/2010/01/love-slalom-but-getting-older.html

Hope this entry will help you abit with your slalom!

I've Found The Song

2010-01-07T16:47:00.004+08:00

I've found the song!!!

Not of local language, but it just makes me feel: "Oh, how I wish to slalom again!" Getting a translator with the lyrics and I found the words are not really meant for me. But who cares! as long as I love the song. ;D

Since the last comp, I've never trained seriously on my slalom. But I'm surprised when I am still able to spin so many rounds on skates! One-wheeled spins are not as good though.

I hope that I can still train for the better and improve my style. Watching my past videos, I really wish to have a better style that screams "I AM BEING MYSELF".

Glamourous? Sexy? Gothic? Cute? Tough? Full of vengeance? Very emo? Dramatic? Crazy? Balletic? Cheeky? Smiley?

Glam is just an idea.
Sexy maybe a little.
Gothic I don't think so.
Cute for kids not for me.
Tough I like.
Vengeance is not me unless somebody offended me.
Emo not all the times.
Dramatic yes.
Crazy comes with dramatic.
Balletic maybe if for symphony music.
Cheeky not me.
Smiley for me likely.

Sure there are other styles besides the above. Everyone of us have our own unique style, have you discovered yours?

Lastly, I thank the song which inspired me. I've found the song!

Big Kid's Ventures Cravings

2009-12-23T15:21:00.003+08:00

Like a kid. A big kid, hee hee.

I am looking forward to visit Dinosaurs, hopefully soon! Even got the tickets! Check the events out byclicking here.

I even feel like attending children's workshop for some art thingy... but cannot la, will feel so weird surrounding by tiny kids - I will look like a leftout Giant with them. I don't mind if they gonna a good laugh at me. It will be fun fun fun!!!

Next I'm planning to explore the Science Center. Its been 12 years since I'm being there except passing by and looking at it dreamily imagine I'm inside of that building right now!

Theme parks are common, but I don't mind too! Recently got over Seng Kang swimming pool. We play slides and splashy waters like mad!!!

Whatelse can I do to soak up like a kid? XD

Activities 2009 Summary

2009-12-16T13:59:00.000+08:00

I have been reflecting, have I made the right move for today?

Somehow, I am disappointed with myself recently.

Many things are going to change. Several things change every seconds. I want to keep up with changes, and many times I'm left breathless.

There are so many opportunities for me and you in life. It's only the choice.

Once I chose one to move forward, I always wish very hard that I won't regret.

Some people persuaded me to give up coaching. Some people persuaded me to continue as an athlete.

Giving up skating is not my forte anymore now. I'm stubborn or determine, up to you.

Giving up competitions? Competing will be just for fun if I ever do.

To improve coaching, it means you have to keep coaching and understand people from different aspects. To compete, as a coach you share experiences to your future students. It's not to "kill" your students during competitions.

Now I understand why coaches are not supposed to compete, especially when of the same category as his/her students. That means I can still continue to compete if I chose to.

Thinking back, I've been clenching and grinding my teeth throughout past more than 2 years as an athlete with Team Micro (now known as Team Seba). Due to my parents who always object me, stop me from skating in any ways, plus a full time job created alot unwanted stress. Their usual ways? Dangeraous and negative factors about the sports. I think some parents are like that too.

In fact the remaining parents are more encouraging when it comes to skating because they are skaters too.

Not a long period though. Contract ended. Previously, I was considering whether to sign again. If there's better alternatives, I will consider.

I went on coaching, objections again!!!

I will go crazy if they object in anything I do!!! What the........

But....

I still hang on till now... :D

Now I hope to influence them with my positive vibes and continue.

Counting so far, I have coached more than hundred students from several schools and other sectors within 8 months. To be exact with the numbers... I will come back again. I should thank Edwin for this.

I am currently a freelance volunteer (facilitator) at Castle Beach for Team Building & Training Programmes with teachers from several schools and workers from several corporate companies. Its fun and frustrating at times as we work with Sand Castles under beautiful weathers most of the time.

Learnt from many different kind of people I've never met before. Bad and good. I saw how ugly people can turn into. That's why frustrating at times. Especially when they pushed blames on me for their failures and how I suggested ways to solved certain problems and they never follow.

These experiences forced me to realize that one must go through failures. When they do, never try to stop them even if you really want to help because in the end some will blame you for not giving them the chances to experience failures.

I was laughing to myself. Its surprisingly true. Nothing right or wrong. I thought what will happen if I never help them? Will they blame me for not helping them enough when there's failure? Ha~ I hope I can become invisible.

Some of my free times were used to assist the visually handicaps. Quite recently I was invited to experience the darkness myself (being visually handicapped) at Ngee Ann Poly "Dialogue in the Dark". If you are curious, the entry fee is $10 for a journey through darkness for more than 1 hour. Usual is $20. This concept was founded from Germany. More details at Dialogue In The Dark

Fear at first, but I adapted the darkness gradually. ;)

I was invited to perform for a group of seriously illed children and their parents. One of my official performances and I hope to turn it into better. I wished those children will live a better life. They appeared very active but they got tired easily. Some really adorable.

Due to some circumstances, I never respond well to an invitation from Media Corp. I could have done better.

Wishing more opportunities for myself and all of you too. :)

Freestyle Slalom Lessons

2009-11-29T13:53:00.002+08:00

Posted on 26 May 2009. It's time for updates!

The number of slalom students had increased gradually and very slowly. Sometimes in life, it's essential to go slow especially when you are learning new skills you don't know.
And when you are working on a new business.

Again, if you want to train/learn Freestyle Slalom with me and or your family, please contact me for further details at:
slalom.angel(at)gmail.com
--- replace (at) with @

I'm sorry to say that I am only available in Singapore. If you are from other countries, you may look for other freestyle skaters in your hometown.

You may check out the videos of my competitions and my details beside this page.

Current Students who are interested to progress for slalom; Year 2009:

Ser Koon (Age 7+) who is the youngest boy from Singapore who took part in FreeStyle Slalom for SNFC 2009. We took less than 3 weeks to form his routine. His parents stopped lessons with me due to their busy schedule. So far, he's my best student amongst the rest. We took 2 weeks break after his competition and the picture of him above was taken during SNFC 2009.
2 teenage girls (Age 13 & 14) @ Pasir Ris, very interested to become a pro but stopped for a while due to their holiday trips.
A mother of 2 girls ( Age 30plus) @ Sembawang, stopped due to her busy schedule. Her daughter age of 5 might start to learn...
2 boys ( Age 5 & 7) @ Pasir Ris, have to go through basic skating as they are not up to my standard in order to move on to slalom.
Boy & Girl (Age 10 & 8) @ Jurong, boy is fast and girl is slower.

More coming soon!

Previously, I had guided some in Year 2008:

A girl (Age 8+), sometimes her sister (Age 5+) together with their father.
A boy (Age 11) at East Coast sometimes with his father and brother.
A boy (Age 11) at Jeluntung.

And I hope that they will still continue to enjoy Freestyle Slalom for leisure!

Before you start to learn Slalom;

You need to have your own Freestyle skates. I recommend the brand Seba.
Full protective gears during my lessons.
If you want to use your recreational skates, you need to remove the Heel Brake from right side of the skates.
You must have gone through Beginner to Intermediate skating lessons with any recognized skate schools and had practised skating on your own for at least 2 weeks!
Keep this in mind. To improve you need to practise on your own at least 1 hour twice a week.

Every foundation comes layer by layer, step by step, in order to become stronger.

Please email me your contact numbers and other details to book your FreeStyle Slalom sessions now!

Feedbacks on SNFC 2009

2009-11-29T13:26:00.000+08:00

I finally gather enough time and courage to write this out after receiving several feedbacks from parents and other students regarding the recent FreeStyle Skating competition in Singapore - Singapore National FreeStyle Championship 2009.

If you think I'm wrong in anyway, please raise your words out. If you agree with my words, I appreciate your supports too. Thank you very much.

I hope that the future competitions come with a fixed schedule/timeline for each Category. This is what most Big Events have and almost follow. Of course the timing for each Category might not be exactly punctual like what was posted but at least the public know the sequence for each category so that they won't be wasting time waiting for their turn.

There are people who will love to watch and participate, but the events are not organized and people got turned off and might say "You are not organized enough." or " I don't know when will be my turn and I have to wait for 8 hour. Damn, I don't think I want to participate next year", etc. Worse, they won't say a thing, and things might go badder for you. I don't know what they might tell others behind the scene... All these are possibilities.

If they are interested to watch Slalom particularly, they have to wait for 5 hours, do you think they will want to wait?

In other words, to attract more outsiders into these kinda events, we gonna get more organized.

If you are going to tell the public, "Oh, due to budget so we are not organized enough." or "Due to unforseen circumstances, so we don't organize the start time." Do you think the public will accept that reason?

Their time and money are spent on your events, so we gonna respect them...

If your purpose to hold events and competitions is to prevent people from participating, then I think you should not put out any timeline like what Standard Chartered did for the public to view. Or simply hold events for your own people, not open to public. More people participate means more money coming in, ain't that the purpose for an event and competitions, etc?

Take Standard Chartered Marathon as an example. http://www.singaporemarathon.com/Runners/Race_Information.aspx

Race Categories
Individual Categories Start Time
Full Marathon (42.195km) 5.30 am
Half Marathon (21.1km) 6.45 am
10km - Men 7.45 am
10km - Women 8.30 am
Wheelchair Race (10km) 9.00 am

You may ask the organizers of this fantastic Marathon Race, how much money and time does it takes to arrange the timeline for each category and post it out for the public to see?
FreeStyle skating Competition
Style Slalom ( Mans )
Style Slalom (Womens)
Style Slalom ( Jr under 9 )
Style Slalom ( Youth under 13 )
Speed Slalom ( Mans )
Speed Slalom ( Women )
Speed Slalom ( Jr under 9 )
Speed Slalom ( Youth under 13 )
Battle Slide ( Mans )
Battle Slide ( Womens )
Battle Slide ( Jr under 12 )
Battle Slide ( Youth under 15 )

So above are the Categories... Participants especially from the public or schools will be more than happy to know what time does each category starts.
Exmple:

FreeStyle skating Competition
10am Style Slalom ( Mans )
Style Slalom (Womens)
Style Slalom ( Jr under 9 )
Style Slalom ( Youth under 13 )

12nn Speed Slalom ( Mans )
Speed Slalom ( Women )
Speed Slalom ( Jr under 9 )
Speed Slalom ( Youth under 13 )

2pm Lunch break

3pm Battle Slide ( Mans )
Battle Slide ( Womens )
Battle Slide ( Jr under 12 )
Battle Slide ( Youth under 15 )

I think it will be better for every one of us include organizers, own people (skaters), the public (both watchers and skaters)... even if it rains, the sequence still remains unchanged, fair enough?

I really really really hate the idea on writing this out. Please take this as a feedback. We understand that its hardwork for you all. We hope to help you improve your future events in all ways. Which means more money coming in for you too ;)

Thanks alot to the organizers for SNFC. Without you all, these kind of events and competitions won't happen. Looking forward for more improvements on the future events and competions.

Thank you for your time to read.

Take a break from Comp.

2009-11-09T14:57:00.003+08:00

SNFC is nearing. I decided to take a break from Competitions for some times so I can focus more on coaching. Hopefully its the right choice for me and my students too.

One of my students will be taking part. I have been spending times within these 3 weeks to plan his routine and train him on his personal skills. Of course, I still have my other works to do besides training him.

It's worthwhile. A pleasant experience.

Oversea trip?

2009-11-02T17:19:00.002+08:00

I wish to go oversea again!

This time it's not just to destress. It's to fulfill the desire to explore places, especially different kinda greeneries, oceans, beaches, etc.

Hopefully next year will get to places not only in Malaysia but also other countries.

A chance to Malaysia this year end, why not? :P

I'm pinning my hope on Pahang or Sabah. Just to get away from City Life.

FreeStyle Slalom with Families

2009-10-26T17:23:00.005+08:00

I'm still training a young boy on freestyle slalom. His parents are getting busy with their works but they still managed to be with him while he trained.

It's a comfort to see that parents got involved with their children doing any sports. There's one period of time when his parents joined him for slalom sessions. Frankly speaking, I also enjoyed myself very much coaching the whole family on slalom and skating.

It's more than coaching. We share experiences and laughters. I still remembered the first time when I saw this boy before I became his coach, he amused me with his "dance and actions" that I laugh alot. XD

Now, he's grown up.

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I wish that in future there will be more families doing freestyle slalom as sports for their bonding sessions, especially those who find skating up and down in East Coast Park boring and want to venture into something cool & interesting but not too dangerous.

By the way, I only coach in Singapore. :)

Malacca trip

2009-10-20T19:11:00.003+08:00

I came back from Malacca on Sunday late night. Fatigue. Dropped to deep sleep after bath - except disturbed a call. >.<

A meaningful trip though. Spent alot on food and drinks.

We went to Cowboy town & Water Paradise at A'Famosa, ate satay chut lut & the famous chicken rice balls, visited Chin Hoon Teng, shopped at Cultural street. I love the Cowboy show and the 5-storey water slide the most. XD

After the trip, started to work immediately. This week not so busy, but next week won't have much free time...

Need to plan and prepare several stuffs and maybe competition. Hope you will understand if I never update.

My Love Will Get You Home

2009-10-20T18:56:00.004+08:00

If you can't see the video below, click The Video Link

If you wander off too far 如果你游离太远
My love will get you home 我的爱将带你回家
If you follow the wrong star 如果你追随了错误的星星
My love will get you home 我的爱将带你回家
If you ever find yourself 如果你曾发现自己
Lost and all alone 迷失而孤独
Get back on your feet and think of me 回来并记起我
My love will get you home Baby 我的爱将带你回家,宝贝
My love will get you home 我的爱将带你回家
If the bright lights blinds your eyes 如果太炫目的光芒灼伤你的眼睛
My love will get you home 我的爱将带你回家
If your troubles break your stride 如果困难阻断你前进的步伐
My love will get you home 我的爱将带你回家
If you ever find yourself 如果你曾发现自己
Lost and all alone 迷失而孤独
Get back on your feet and think of me 回来并记起我
My love will get you home Baby 我的爱将带你回家,宝贝
My love will get you home 我的爱将带你回家
If you ever feel ashame 如果你曾感觉困窘
My love will get you home 我的爱将带你回家
If its only you to blame 如果你被责怪
My love will get you home 我的爱将带你回家
If you ever find yourself 如果你曾发现自己
Lost and all alone 迷失而孤独
Get back on your feet and think of me 回来并记起我
My love will get you home Baby 我的爱将带你回家,宝贝
My love will get you home 我的爱将带你回家
If you ever find yourself 如果你曾发现自己
Lost and all alone 迷失而孤独
Get back on your feet and think of me 回来并记起我
My love will get you home Baby 我的爱将带你回家,宝贝
My love will get you home 我的爱将带你回家
My love will get you home Baby 我的爱将带你回家,宝贝
My love will get you home 我的爱将带你回家

Its a very sweet song. Glad that some girls (and guys) share the same sentiments with me.

Take a Break

2009-10-12T17:04:00.002+08:00

I'm going away this weekends, to have a break from everything. Hopefully at the end of the day, I will be fully energized for further challenges awaiting for me.

Before leaving, I still have to complete some projects and lessons.

Even though I'm away, you can still give me a buzz.

Ris Low, Miss Singapore World 2009

2009-10-10T15:15:00.002+08:00

Ris Low, the Miss Singapore World 2009 winner, got a bad reputation for misusing customers' credit cards in the past.

I think alot people will be thinking:
"She's a disgrace to Singapore!"
"She's not supposed to represent Singapore with a criminal record."

According to the news report, she never lie or deny about this fact.

I remembered when I first saw the news. I was neutral. Com'on! Every human do make mistakes. Do you wish to be forgiven after making a mistake? Yes. Me too.

If she promised never to repeat the mistakes again, and really proves it herself, I think we should give her the chance to chase her dream for the Miss world title. She can successful even with the reputation.

How?

I was thinking, if she proves herself by standing against all odds, and by the time she got older, people remembered her as an ex-offender yet a successful Miss World. She can still be successful, and maybe help ex-offenders to stand up... etc.

Ain't there's some sort of campaign for Anti-prejudice against Ex-offender?

Sun Ho

2009-10-05T18:55:00.005+08:00

Before I continue, all the best to my beloved students and dearest kid-friends for your Exams & studies!!!!!

Sun Ho.

She's from Singapore, related to City Harvest Church. Although I have a bad impression with my visits at that church long time ago, but I admire this lady with spirit. Kind soul she is. Stronger she is, even with a bad childhood.

Kudos to her for her fanciful MTVs. If you realized, she's very strong in her English. I'm sure that's one point that she's able to stand strong in the "ang mo" industry. Besides, she did alot of charity works.

Fancy Free

Woke up feeling like a millionaire,
Walking down the street with the wind in my hair,
All the boys stare, say I look so good,
No, I'm not cocky but I knew that they would,

Cause everywhere I go my life is a party,
I don't have a worry, the sun keeps on shining on me,
Look how it's shining on me, (Oh),
You can't tell me nothing, look out cause I'm coming,
The street is my runway and everyone's looking at me,
All of their eyes are on me, (All of their eyes are on me)
And I....

I feel so beautiful, (I'm lovely),
Can't no one tell me no (I'm fancy free),
My life's a circus show (It's lovely),
No matter where I go (I'm fancy free),

Dee, dee, dee, dee,
Dee, dee, dee, dee, dee, dee,
Dee, dee, dee, dee, dee, dee, dee,
I'm fancy free

Feels just like I'm on a shooting star,
Made my wish to be a super star,
If I'm wrong and dreams don't come true,
I'll just make today what I want to.

Have your say, you can't break my high,
You should join me on my carpet ride,
Let's play, what you say,
Say yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

It's so easy,
See that's your problem right there,
You're too cool, (yeah, yeah)
I'm just trying to have fun, stop worrying so much,
And just follow me.

Cause I feel so beautiful,
Can't no one tell me no,
My life's a circus show,
No matter where I go,
I'm fancy free.

I love the settings, the style used, the dance, the clothes, the substance of Sun and her dancers... She's getting sexier! Despite of this "ang mo" style-demand for the vid, she still have her original ethic untouched.

Despite there's bad comments about this Vid, I'm sure Sun is trying hard to come up with great music for her fans. You can't deny that she'd put in great effort on the MV for this song.

Poor doggy :(

2009-09-23T20:11:00.003+08:00

Although some people might think the Video below is foolish or stupid or lame... I felt very sad for that dog. His wife was dead, yet he still stay by her side for so long! Actually, the Chinese descriptive words made the whole video even saddening.

I think we can learn from this dog: Always treasure the person whom you loved, always. Do not wait until when he or she disappeared from the world.

Easy to understand, might not be easy to do.