Wake Up 4 in The Morning

Guess what? I woke up at 4am plus and washed all coversheets for our sleeping usage. She had transferred all the dust mites on to me and I woke up feeling all itches on my body… Felt so fresh after all the washing.

Then I went for an aerobic slalom session at 7am, and the feeling was damn shiok. I can hear my heart pumping so hard until I feel that all my blood vessels are gonna burst.

I have discovered something fun – while, maybe to me bah, because it is just a simple exercise for slalom. Seems simple, yet I’m feeling very tired in the end.

Stress now… A lot of paper works to accomplish lah… Next working day then complete, now what time liaoz, somemore no OT if I stay for overtime. It will be best if I only need to work 5 days a week. How I wish. Suddenly feel regretted that I agree to come back.

I need a recover for tomorrow sports, so going for a splash now.

Big CHEERS to sports. Big BOO to current job.

Peek @ my blog!

Can't help it, I still peek into my blog after my work. :P Hunger and Mother Nature is calling me... Whole day is soooooooo busy, but still manage a one-hour lunch with some colleagues. Incredible! I used to squeeze only half an hour for lunch when busy, and lunch can be as late as 4-5pm... Pathetic.

Now I think, for what? All the last minute works, and say need it very soon, must be fast...

After those months, still got the cheek to ask me to help you now, and when today is soooooo busy! Ask me for related works I'm OK. Full Stop.

Luckily, some circumstances assisted me to get away. Heehee!

Not much now, I’m going for a swim. Hope I’m not too late…

Talk about Life

World Slalom: December, 3 months away...

Friday trained at East Coast for 3 hours.
Saturday trained for 6 hours.
Sunday rested and swimmed for 2 hours.
Today? Maybe rest completely...

I felt not that strong like last time, whereby I can train for more than 6 hours at time and at least 3 times per week. Maybe my mentality weakened, so my physical too. It's a no wonder that the working world can be so harsh to one's personality and mentality. A training where sports don't give much, and also depend on what kind of boss you are attached to.

I'm quite lucky enough to got a handsome yet cunning boss this time. He, who can seems very good to you, and yet a different story may surface anytime.

No better, not worse.

There is a strict and cunning and unpredictable boss. He's mean and will force people to do things without giving an exact details of what he wants, instead you are suppose to find out and get through of what he mentioned, with only little instructions. When asked further, his tantrum will put off and burn your ears. As if you have asked him to repeat the same thing over and over again.

When he's not happy, he banged his angst on you just because you misplaced or never did a small little thing. At the end of the day, he will try to make you think he's the boss so he can be that way then he will try to make you think you are wrong and you are suppose to change as soon as possible. You are a subordinate, so you are suppose to listen to him. Any disrespect can cause you out of the office.

He will always scrutinized things you are doing, a very tiny small mistakes means a gigantic sin, and you have to bear all the bombastic temper from him.
So are you going through this scenario too? I think the only way is to either quit, or wait for some miracles to happen.

I'm lucky enough, there's an "angel"... He told me to be happy. He told me how I can be happy. He told me how he'd seen through what I'm going through. I wonder if that's white lies at first. I came to a point whereby, there's nobody who I can trust anymore. I even started to stay away from my friends.

So, it makes me seems lonely, yet my mind and spirit is going through alot whereby no one can ever sees.

There's alot of times, I started to think why are we living on this Earth. So, is it because for some beings' entertainment so it or they can watch so many stories going on on the earth? It makes sense to me sometimes. Or, for some kind of beings to find suitable candidates who can assist in some missions that are far away from the horizon?

Why are we living with Lust, Gluttony, Greed, Sloth (Laziness), Wrath (Anger), Envy and Pride? Is there any ways that we can eliminate these? I can't help it, but I saw alot of these around me.

Why are there people who will sue people just over a few dollars? For the sake of their own prides? Can't they wake up and look! What harms are they doing to others? So, does that make you enjoy life?

Why are there people who in the state of envies will start trying to destroy the person's pride? Just because that person earns money, earn respects, and you can do that? Destroying pride of theirs and see them suffer? You are so not humane.

Next, out of envy which caused anger, the evil is swallowed by its sin, and seeing people suffer makes it feel good. Does that really makes sense?

When you are lazy, you get fat easily. I've met someone who is so lazy that the someone pushes all the chores to others to do. No wonder that someone is getting fat again, because of the anger and sloth. It turn out that someone is a bully always trying to wreck others emotion and make them scared.

Greed is too common. We are living in this world whereby money is almost everything to almost every people. Especially in the working society, what they are doing is mainly for money, to survive.

Somehow, it's the fact of money and money makes me really fed up. In this world, everybody can't live without money. I wonder how the third world survives without money. The person who invented Money is a genius but a fool. Can't you see, money is now becoming figure? The state of your status is being numbered by this thing called money. Com'on, money is only an object make of paper and metal, so does this make sense? And, in the end it’s only the figures.

Some people live to eat. Some people eat to live. Some fall in both categories. Gluttony is one of the factor caused so many diseases. We should feed our body with healthy foods instead of just good foods. People who live to eat, I suppose they are the riches. People who eat to live, I suppose they belong to the poor and the third world. Those who fall in both, I suppose they are those who have the luck to enjoy good food and at the same time, they eat because they want to stay healthy. In the modern society, there are people who count to eat to live: Super Models wannabe.

Lastly, there goes lust. It goes out to the desire for sex, for branded goods, for power, for high authority... So it will lead us back to pride, envy, wrath............

All the sins are related. We human are all trapped in this cycle. But how can we get out of this cycle? Do you have any idea or are you getting out of this cycle, already?

Look, all this are happening to all of us right now! It's common sense that we have to get out from all these sins, because they will only lead us to more sufferings.

One thing, it's up to you whether you want to get out or not.

Being a human is not easy... Maybe it's a process to be something else? So after death, where will we be? Heaven or hell? I think these two things are so commonly mentioned but it seems nothing yet. So before this life, what kind of person or creatures are you? Why are you being who are you today? Is it because of all the good and bad deeds in the past live you have done?

Within more than 2 decades, all I feel that, this life is nothing if I continue just wanna do what almost all human are doing: Earning or finding more money to survive. What I feel is something much more...

Getting better...

Work:

I'm getting better, trying to get over those unpleasants and start afresh. Feeling like the clouds are moving away and now it's drizzling with glimpse of sunshines. This shall be another experience under a stormy and rainy weather. Grinding the the base of my character, rewinding every experiences I have gone through. Painful yet meaningful.

Somehow getting smarter, maybe.

Now I have more time and able to have training after work. A different position and wonder about the next meeting.

Skating:

My passion and view towards slalom had yet moved to another stage, another phase, after the SNFC on 17th August 2008. It's a wonderful feeling. Maybe some dynamic changes will take place soon? I don't know.

Song chosen, moves in brainstorming process. Really wish to learn more new skills. I lack in creativity that's why. Inspirations are mostly from videos.

So the next competition is on December and I just can't help wondering, am I qualified for that competition? I wonder which position am I in under open category? I wonder have I improved and how much? Is it only by a few marks or alot of marks?

I feel the need to polish up alot of technical skills. Duh~

Changes

I have been so confused recently. There's some problem at work but I don't know who to turn to. Nobody though. Everybody seems to be busy, or they are just not friends, not the right person to talk to. How should I voice out to the right person? What should I do?

Frankly speaking, I’m drained emotionally, mentally and even physically at times recently. I have neglected my skating routines for the past few months, yeah; which was more than 2 months. For the 1st month of my work, everything is going well. Only after that, which is May, my health was affected; my working hours got extended in order to meet deadlines most of the time, and my performance still seems not efficient enough. Hence, my esteem was at extreme low level.

Until recently, I have lesser duties and a transfer is going to take place. I’m not sure what to do. I’m not sure whether should I still carry on or not? I’m not sure whether they have chosen me as the right person or not?

I wish to be one of the company’s good staff. I wish to be able to do my best. I don’t want just to be working for the sake of working. Hope that everything will be going on well.

While, it’s not easy to juggle both work and skating, but I will try my very best. Cheers!

Busy June

According to a horoscope reading, this month (June) is a bad month for me with works piling up at office. It's very true as I found no time for skating at all. Some minor chores awaiting for my attention yet I found that I am rushing everyday to accomplish alot of major things in office. Up till today, there are still plenty of works awaiting for me to research and complete.

Now, I feel that my energy is at extreme wastage. Not enough sleep, irregular meals, and having dehydration at times. In no time, I have to stop all these before gastric pains develop. Alot of times when I reached home after work, I just feel like dropping into the bed immediately without bathing. There, the symptoms showed that I have overworked.

Work as HR, Secretary, Admin, Accounts, Customer Service and Receptionist at once, are you holding a job like this too? Welcome you to leave some comments here.

At times, I felt very guilty when others got to leave work early. It seems that I am not effecient enough, or maybe too slow? While, I even bring some works back home to do.

I think it's even worse for my boss... He's holding a very important position in the company, that's why.

How I wish that somebody will be able to take away some of my current duties from me. By right at the start, I am just an admin cum secretary... Really got to thanks my boss for getting me so busy though because I have learnt alot through the process. Haha! Frankly speaking it's very tiring.

I will try my best to squeeze some times for training, but no promise. I like my current job and don't want to lose it. I've been trying very hard to hold it tightly even when there are barriers and problems which I manage to overcome with helps from others.

Sometimes I thought I might just as well give up skating and concentrate on works. After thorough thinking, my lack of time will only be temporary so I will still have times for skating in future. Alot of times, I just wonder if I really give up and leave the skating world, will the people still remember my existence? Maybe not. Haha!

Afterall skating is just my interest, I have no regrets to have been involved in this world. There are people out there who dislike me, there are people who like me... It's the same everywhere we go, righto? There are people who want you to leave, there are people who want you to stay, there are people who want you to stay yet they are thinking of how to get rid of you. Scary not? But that's how the society runs, we can't help it.

Let's not say you hate those people, we should think of ways to tackle all these problems and never give up.