Talk about Life

World Slalom: December, 3 months away...

Friday trained at East Coast for 3 hours.
Saturday trained for 6 hours.
Sunday rested and swimmed for 2 hours.
Today? Maybe rest completely...

I felt not that strong like last time, whereby I can train for more than 6 hours at time and at least 3 times per week. Maybe my mentality weakened, so my physical too. It's a no wonder that the working world can be so harsh to one's personality and mentality. A training where sports don't give much, and also depend on what kind of boss you are attached to.

I'm quite lucky enough to got a handsome yet cunning boss this time. He, who can seems very good to you, and yet a different story may surface anytime.

No better, not worse.

There is a strict and cunning and unpredictable boss. He's mean and will force people to do things without giving an exact details of what he wants, instead you are suppose to find out and get through of what he mentioned, with only little instructions. When asked further, his tantrum will put off and burn your ears. As if you have asked him to repeat the same thing over and over again.

When he's not happy, he banged his angst on you just because you misplaced or never did a small little thing. At the end of the day, he will try to make you think he's the boss so he can be that way then he will try to make you think you are wrong and you are suppose to change as soon as possible. You are a subordinate, so you are suppose to listen to him. Any disrespect can cause you out of the office.

He will always scrutinized things you are doing, a very tiny small mistakes means a gigantic sin, and you have to bear all the bombastic temper from him.
So are you going through this scenario too? I think the only way is to either quit, or wait for some miracles to happen.

I'm lucky enough, there's an "angel"... He told me to be happy. He told me how I can be happy. He told me how he'd seen through what I'm going through. I wonder if that's white lies at first. I came to a point whereby, there's nobody who I can trust anymore. I even started to stay away from my friends.

So, it makes me seems lonely, yet my mind and spirit is going through alot whereby no one can ever sees.

There's alot of times, I started to think why are we living on this Earth. So, is it because for some beings' entertainment so it or they can watch so many stories going on on the earth? It makes sense to me sometimes. Or, for some kind of beings to find suitable candidates who can assist in some missions that are far away from the horizon?

Why are we living with Lust, Gluttony, Greed, Sloth (Laziness), Wrath (Anger), Envy and Pride? Is there any ways that we can eliminate these? I can't help it, but I saw alot of these around me.

Why are there people who will sue people just over a few dollars? For the sake of their own prides? Can't they wake up and look! What harms are they doing to others? So, does that make you enjoy life?

Why are there people who in the state of envies will start trying to destroy the person's pride? Just because that person earns money, earn respects, and you can do that? Destroying pride of theirs and see them suffer? You are so not humane.

Next, out of envy which caused anger, the evil is swallowed by its sin, and seeing people suffer makes it feel good. Does that really makes sense?

When you are lazy, you get fat easily. I've met someone who is so lazy that the someone pushes all the chores to others to do. No wonder that someone is getting fat again, because of the anger and sloth. It turn out that someone is a bully always trying to wreck others emotion and make them scared.

Greed is too common. We are living in this world whereby money is almost everything to almost every people. Especially in the working society, what they are doing is mainly for money, to survive.

Somehow, it's the fact of money and money makes me really fed up. In this world, everybody can't live without money. I wonder how the third world survives without money. The person who invented Money is a genius but a fool. Can't you see, money is now becoming figure? The state of your status is being numbered by this thing called money. Com'on, money is only an object make of paper and metal, so does this make sense? And, in the end it’s only the figures.

Some people live to eat. Some people eat to live. Some fall in both categories. Gluttony is one of the factor caused so many diseases. We should feed our body with healthy foods instead of just good foods. People who live to eat, I suppose they are the riches. People who eat to live, I suppose they belong to the poor and the third world. Those who fall in both, I suppose they are those who have the luck to enjoy good food and at the same time, they eat because they want to stay healthy. In the modern society, there are people who count to eat to live: Super Models wannabe.

Lastly, there goes lust. It goes out to the desire for sex, for branded goods, for power, for high authority... So it will lead us back to pride, envy, wrath............

All the sins are related. We human are all trapped in this cycle. But how can we get out of this cycle? Do you have any idea or are you getting out of this cycle, already?

Look, all this are happening to all of us right now! It's common sense that we have to get out from all these sins, because they will only lead us to more sufferings.

One thing, it's up to you whether you want to get out or not.

Being a human is not easy... Maybe it's a process to be something else? So after death, where will we be? Heaven or hell? I think these two things are so commonly mentioned but it seems nothing yet. So before this life, what kind of person or creatures are you? Why are you being who are you today? Is it because of all the good and bad deeds in the past live you have done?

Within more than 2 decades, all I feel that, this life is nothing if I continue just wanna do what almost all human are doing: Earning or finding more money to survive. What I feel is something much more...