People tried to hurt, yet I'm thinking to myself "Oh, it's very funny!". I'm going insane anytime. Maybe you will think: "Great! Go insane! Great!". Yeah, nobody will sympathize you. Who will?
Face it! The world is not as beautiful as you think!
- Those who had been nasty to you.
- Those who had boycott you.
- Those who always make fun of you.
- Those who thought you can be bullied and think you will be okay afterward.
- Those who tried several ways to make you left behind.
- Those who are trying to make you insane.
If you really think through, maybe you will find out that most of them are those who are quite close to you. How long have you known them? Then you will try to soul-search, what have you done wrong? In the end, you gave up. Just stop talking to them. Just do your stuffs and don't care about their evil remarks & smirks.
Many days, many months, a few years passed.
You are a loner with no one to turn to. You seldom talk. You seldom share, fearing of people who will criticize about you. You hope to disappear from the world and nobody will ever see your face again. Hence, your self-hatred grew so strong until even success means failure to you. You started to change to another person - in a progress of "growing up".
Why? It's a process of getting matured and wiser.
Someone will then just tell you, just stop thinking about them. They are just trying to be funny. That someone maybe is only trying to be an angel to console you. It's good intention of that person. But when you are full of pessimistic, you are sure that the "angel" is also a "devil" who'd ganged up with others to destruct you.
No friends. Not enemies either. They are just strangers.
When more incidents started to happen, you started to gain a bigger picture on why some people behave in such a way. You saw lights. You began to see much more outside the picture. You think through about those unhappy events that happened to you. You started to wailed with guilt, anguish and sadness. Finally! You vented your emotions on something else... You realized you have to face some many facts which may be still left unknown.
Nevertheless, those events already happened.
It's alright to think through and cry about your past. It's healthy. Rather you get so bottled up and became a volcano which will indeed bring more harms upon yourself and others.
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Maybe, being through this hella-sh*tz, have had made me and you become today. If you started to go through every chapter of your life, maybe you will get to learn about some many unknown knowledge. "Yeah, of coures."
Alright, I started to miss skating.
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