Unpredictable Thoughts

Hello all, I am glad to inform you that I have completed a vegan diet for consecutive 6 days. I wonder how will my physique look like without any meat consumed. 

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There's nothing wrong to keep our moods under control. There's nothing wrong to show our emotions too! It depends on yourself.
I'm in sought to understand the origin behind my emotions, and the causes are pretty complicated. Mostly are indirectly causal by people I interacted with. In the first place, why do I allow all these to happen? Just because I am understanding enough, people tend to take advantage?

Throughout a long process, I had learnt how to forgive, but I've forgotten about myself who needs understanding too.

I never know all these can cause so much despairs deep inside my heart that I ignore how I've felt at first. When the emotions afloat, the ache is unbearable. I wish that it will cease soon. 
Why I never write for a long period it is because I put myself into retreat after finishing all the lessons non-stop for 2-3 weeks previously. There is no need to show off how busy am I or how busy are you, because it might result imbalance emotionally or and even mentally.

I just found out, all these imbalances can be from people who are jealous/envious of you, angry at you, and even those who love you alot, etc. Maybe you think this is abnormal, but it is so invisible and its the works of nature. This explains why some celebrities have mental/nervous breakdown and sought towards suicide and rehabilitation. Their lives are surrounded and scrutinized thereby with so many crazy fans, medias, haters, gossipers and paparazzi. Of course there are more factors to it and you may find out more anyway.

Seems like a glamorous life to most, but as a celebrity you have to handle many obstacles and tough decisions behind scene. And also to maintain psychology/spiritual/emotional balance within yourself.

I am not here to discourage anyone if you want to be a celebrity. But this is the fact we have to face, and you should have read alot from the news too. Not only celebrity, this could happen to anyone at any workplaces too.

PS: Suicide means to suffer, over again and again. So please do not be silly. We should be grateful to be able to be in this World to learn from various experiences. Love your life.

I pity those celebrities/common people who committed suicide. Such a waste of life. They can learn so much more if they'd continued to live.



Next time, I will try to post some photos here. I have taken tonnes of them.

Wish you well and happy!