This blog is all about my personal thoughts, experiences and some grumblings.
I have to make myself to stop this kind of blogging which I think will cost me my reputation in some ways. It seems like I'm afraid of how people think of me. Deep down I don't know what good will it bring me to write my thinking over here.
What is the main purpose for me to keep this blog?
I can go without blogging for months and don't bother about readership.
Anyway the main purpose should be communicate with readers with my own words own thinking without offending people. Although I'm straightforward, I will always try my best to find ways to not offend too many people. That's how I can stay low profile.
While, in order to become a good blogger, you have to write in your own style like you are talking to somebody which I think I'm not very good at it yet. Yeah I don't mind saying bad things about myself which is the risk of getting people to think that you are not the person everyone wants to make friend with.
In this way, I won't attract any unwanted attention la...
I saw that XiaXue the famous blogger had a baby boy. Isn't it a joy? She just posted all her baby boy pictures and that's how I got to know it and her picture on the New Paper. Really attention grabber. Her pictures are stunning!
While I do have some stunning photos in my facebook but that was long ago. Now I'm not into creating awesome photos of myself. To me its a waste of time. You have to prepare make ups and wear those attention grabber clothes and you have to bear with how the photographers look at you. Some are so pervertish that I wish to punch them on their faces.
Maybe because I was molested when I was 13 that I am so sensitive. I still survived through those photoshoot sessions.
When am I getting married?
This is a big question that people are asking especially when I'm reaching 30 within a few years time. The bad news is I don't have any boyfriend and I don't intend to look for one.
Probably the past relationships had gotten me lack of confidence with men. I'm so unlucky that most men I met in the past are jerks except afew who likes me and are genuinely good to me. Those are good but there's no chemistry between us so we move on.
Those are dirty bunch of jerks especially when it comes to relationships. All they were looking for is Sex. Normally they will pretend to be some nice guys but their main motive is Sex. (I'm stating only certain guys here, so please understand. Ladies, please be careful of certain guys. Maybe I should make a list of them. I also don't want to be sued for this.)
You may think that I'm stupid to have fall in love with such guys. Tell me who have the ability to read someone minds? Who will know beforehand that the guys will become abusive and so forth? Who will know the guy will turn nasty and become a jerk after a few years?
Unless you have the ability to do prophecy, unless you have the special power to read their minds, unless you can predict the future. Or maybe I should have gone to some powerful fortune tellers with their birthdates and time to tell me who exactly they are.
It is healthy for men to think of sex naturally but when they just want to have your bodies rubbing against theirs, play with your feelings, make use of you and abuse you just because they want to have relationship with another girl. What is there to continue with a relationship like that? So girls, please get away from this kind of man.
Since we can't control them, we might as well don't get into contact with them at all or just stay as Hi-Bye friend if consequences forced. I hate to say I feel like giving them a punch in their faces and even send them to jail. I even wish that I'm bitchy enough to do all sorts of tricks on them making their life terrible.
I thought of revenge. That is when I'm overwhelmed with hatred, shocked and other negative emotions. However I managed to forgive them in the end which I do not how I do it. Probably by understanding why they turn into a beast which maybe due to some trauma they have in their own lives that had caused them to become a jerk.
That does not mean I'm going to get involved with them again. So in the end I turn my back towards them, I stepped out of these relationships and never want to turn back anymore. Of course that involves courage and temporary heart breaks, but once it's over, it's over.
Those guys who tend to be jerks should start seeing a psychology if not they will become seriously mental illed due to guilt. While that's none of my business. Ok, maybe that won't happen too.
All those years I had beared with them, and enough is enough. I just want to lead a happy life for now till I'm old.
Anyway, I can feel that Era for me is gone for good. Maybe its because I have to go through that stage to know what kind of men are out there hurting ladies hearts, what men are really thinking. It pretty hurts my heart.
The good news is I met some male friends who are available. The only problem is I tend to avoid them especially when they are trying to ask me out. Anyway that's a month back and I indirectly push it away.
So you see, I'm not ready for relationship. I still have the fear of having to meet those kind of men again. And its not going to be healthy to have broken heart again and again.
Unless the guy proves to me he's not a jerk. This will pretty much involves with periods of knowing each other since we are not clairvoyance. Or perhaps get a fortune teller to help you.
Although I have met EFT to help me overcome these feelings, but that is not the main priority for me. I still want to concentrate to build my business, my future career, my dreams. Who are willing to help me with that?
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Wow, I just spent an hour only to create such a long entry.
Part of me wish that I won't be writing in this way anymore. Because not everybody will want to read how you feel, what are your grumblings, and its all about your own life which I sometime think I should keep it to my own journal.
Is it true or maybe its not.
Some people are really inspired by your stories.
While so far I receive no feedback about mine. Partly because I have stopped updating frequently for so long and my past readers might have lost their energy to read.
I shall write again when I feel like to!
I have to make myself to stop this kind of blogging which I think will cost me my reputation in some ways. It seems like I'm afraid of how people think of me. Deep down I don't know what good will it bring me to write my thinking over here.
What is the main purpose for me to keep this blog?
I can go without blogging for months and don't bother about readership.
Anyway the main purpose should be communicate with readers with my own words own thinking without offending people. Although I'm straightforward, I will always try my best to find ways to not offend too many people. That's how I can stay low profile.
While, in order to become a good blogger, you have to write in your own style like you are talking to somebody which I think I'm not very good at it yet. Yeah I don't mind saying bad things about myself which is the risk of getting people to think that you are not the person everyone wants to make friend with.
In this way, I won't attract any unwanted attention la...
I saw that XiaXue the famous blogger had a baby boy. Isn't it a joy? She just posted all her baby boy pictures and that's how I got to know it and her picture on the New Paper. Really attention grabber. Her pictures are stunning!
While I do have some stunning photos in my facebook but that was long ago. Now I'm not into creating awesome photos of myself. To me its a waste of time. You have to prepare make ups and wear those attention grabber clothes and you have to bear with how the photographers look at you. Some are so pervertish that I wish to punch them on their faces.
Maybe because I was molested when I was 13 that I am so sensitive. I still survived through those photoshoot sessions.
When am I getting married?
This is a big question that people are asking especially when I'm reaching 30 within a few years time. The bad news is I don't have any boyfriend and I don't intend to look for one.
Probably the past relationships had gotten me lack of confidence with men. I'm so unlucky that most men I met in the past are jerks except afew who likes me and are genuinely good to me. Those are good but there's no chemistry between us so we move on.
Those are dirty bunch of jerks especially when it comes to relationships. All they were looking for is Sex. Normally they will pretend to be some nice guys but their main motive is Sex. (I'm stating only certain guys here, so please understand. Ladies, please be careful of certain guys. Maybe I should make a list of them. I also don't want to be sued for this.)
You may think that I'm stupid to have fall in love with such guys. Tell me who have the ability to read someone minds? Who will know beforehand that the guys will become abusive and so forth? Who will know the guy will turn nasty and become a jerk after a few years?
Unless you have the ability to do prophecy, unless you have the special power to read their minds, unless you can predict the future. Or maybe I should have gone to some powerful fortune tellers with their birthdates and time to tell me who exactly they are.
It is healthy for men to think of sex naturally but when they just want to have your bodies rubbing against theirs, play with your feelings, make use of you and abuse you just because they want to have relationship with another girl. What is there to continue with a relationship like that? So girls, please get away from this kind of man.
Since we can't control them, we might as well don't get into contact with them at all or just stay as Hi-Bye friend if consequences forced. I hate to say I feel like giving them a punch in their faces and even send them to jail. I even wish that I'm bitchy enough to do all sorts of tricks on them making their life terrible.
I thought of revenge. That is when I'm overwhelmed with hatred, shocked and other negative emotions. However I managed to forgive them in the end which I do not how I do it. Probably by understanding why they turn into a beast which maybe due to some trauma they have in their own lives that had caused them to become a jerk.
That does not mean I'm going to get involved with them again. So in the end I turn my back towards them, I stepped out of these relationships and never want to turn back anymore. Of course that involves courage and temporary heart breaks, but once it's over, it's over.
Those guys who tend to be jerks should start seeing a psychology if not they will become seriously mental illed due to guilt. While that's none of my business. Ok, maybe that won't happen too.
All those years I had beared with them, and enough is enough. I just want to lead a happy life for now till I'm old.
Anyway, I can feel that Era for me is gone for good. Maybe its because I have to go through that stage to know what kind of men are out there hurting ladies hearts, what men are really thinking. It pretty hurts my heart.
The good news is I met some male friends who are available. The only problem is I tend to avoid them especially when they are trying to ask me out. Anyway that's a month back and I indirectly push it away.
So you see, I'm not ready for relationship. I still have the fear of having to meet those kind of men again. And its not going to be healthy to have broken heart again and again.
Unless the guy proves to me he's not a jerk. This will pretty much involves with periods of knowing each other since we are not clairvoyance. Or perhaps get a fortune teller to help you.
Although I have met EFT to help me overcome these feelings, but that is not the main priority for me. I still want to concentrate to build my business, my future career, my dreams. Who are willing to help me with that?
--------
Wow, I just spent an hour only to create such a long entry.
Part of me wish that I won't be writing in this way anymore. Because not everybody will want to read how you feel, what are your grumblings, and its all about your own life which I sometime think I should keep it to my own journal.
Is it true or maybe its not.
Some people are really inspired by your stories.
While so far I receive no feedback about mine. Partly because I have stopped updating frequently for so long and my past readers might have lost their energy to read.
I shall write again when I feel like to!
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