What happen to my MSN? It seems to have become a spamming tool for others. So I seldom get online. That time I told a friend I have not been online for one month its actually referring to MSN. While I'm still quite active with FaceBook and Gmail especially while on my mobile. I wonder whether my friend will thought I am lying since online also means go on to internet. -.-'''
Next time, I must be more specific.
I seems to be feeling rather down for the past 2 months. Deep in my heart I know I have to pass this stage. Although may not be handling the emotions well enough, yet I've reached a conclusion on the new phase of my life. This time I know I want it.
I used jump into any career I came upon in order to survive the ordeal. Just for the sake of money to keep my body goes on. In the end I'm still a survivor having to go through some of the crisis in life. Maybe I could have done better.
While, everyone also will have to go through this stage before they started to realise what is life for them, right?
When I got out from Poly, I was aimless until I met skating. Holding full-time jobs some times, and trained on skating with the rest of spare time I have. I neglected alot of many other things. I know there are alot people who are going through this kind of life too. Deep in my heart, skating will not be a forever thing till I'm old.
I went on to coach after 2 years plus as Slalom competitor. Yes. I gave up training on the sports due to pains I hardly can endure anymore which was incurable till now. My parents objected about my training when I just started, yet as stubborn as an oxen, I still wished to accomplish in the sports. There would always be fierce arguments on this issue. I neglected my family which I really regretted.
They wanted me to get a full time job, yet the burning desire in my heart was brushing up my skills in slalom skating. So I succumbed with part time jobs at times, because of physical and mental fatigue, I can't commit much to a full time job in long term. At that time, I was training 5 - 6 times per week with at least 2 hours a day, the max I go was 12 hours. Now thinking back, I was crazy. Too clouded with my goal and I neglected my parents' advice.
The main reason I realise was, they really care about my future and my health. But since I'm older now, it is not their responsibilities to put me on track and teach me life lessons. Now it is my responsibility to realise what do I want to do with this life, and make use of whatever knowledge I have to put into use. Of course, my family is still part of my life from time to time. Giving tuitions, teaching them to skate, bringing them out, buying meals for them, sharing tips with them, encourage them, remind them, doing things together...
Only some times, yet the time spent is priceless.
After coaching for a while, I explore other options to enhance on coaching skills. I just felt that something was amiss with my coaching skills. Am I matured enough to impart the skills? I think the greatest impact to my skills was facilitating at Castle Beach which was a great and fun lesson to learn from there. Which I really give thanks to Mr Alvin Lee for introducing other opportunities for my growth and development. I give thanks to the inline skating Head Coach for giving me many opportunities to coach too.
Do forgive me for any mischievous that I brought to you.
Those who do not understand me might have kept guessing about why I seems to be switching jobs for several times thinking I'm a job hopper. That's natural. I was aiming at skating career while doing several jobs. Got it?
And they might have spread untrue rumours about me. And maybe some just curse and swear that I'm exaggerating about what I have gone through.
While we can't stop people from all these. We know ourselves. We know which step we are going to take. It is not for others to manipulate us. Just because they say this and that, we change our mind. Whichever step, continue or give up is really totally up to us. As long as we know why.
I still understand about their ignorance, because I have gone through their stages before. I was young before. I was naive before. I was naughty before. I was playful before even till now. I am still a dreamer...
If you are going to tell me that you know everything in the world when since you were borned, sorry, that's kinda bullsh*tting to me. Unless you are Arhat reborn. Maybe for some you can think better when you were young. Good for you :)
Alright. Busy till end of weekends. Wish all a blissful life.
Next time, I must be more specific.
I seems to be feeling rather down for the past 2 months. Deep in my heart I know I have to pass this stage. Although may not be handling the emotions well enough, yet I've reached a conclusion on the new phase of my life. This time I know I want it.
I used jump into any career I came upon in order to survive the ordeal. Just for the sake of money to keep my body goes on. In the end I'm still a survivor having to go through some of the crisis in life. Maybe I could have done better.
While, everyone also will have to go through this stage before they started to realise what is life for them, right?
When I got out from Poly, I was aimless until I met skating. Holding full-time jobs some times, and trained on skating with the rest of spare time I have. I neglected alot of many other things. I know there are alot people who are going through this kind of life too. Deep in my heart, skating will not be a forever thing till I'm old.
I went on to coach after 2 years plus as Slalom competitor. Yes. I gave up training on the sports due to pains I hardly can endure anymore which was incurable till now. My parents objected about my training when I just started, yet as stubborn as an oxen, I still wished to accomplish in the sports. There would always be fierce arguments on this issue. I neglected my family which I really regretted.
They wanted me to get a full time job, yet the burning desire in my heart was brushing up my skills in slalom skating. So I succumbed with part time jobs at times, because of physical and mental fatigue, I can't commit much to a full time job in long term. At that time, I was training 5 - 6 times per week with at least 2 hours a day, the max I go was 12 hours. Now thinking back, I was crazy. Too clouded with my goal and I neglected my parents' advice.
The main reason I realise was, they really care about my future and my health. But since I'm older now, it is not their responsibilities to put me on track and teach me life lessons. Now it is my responsibility to realise what do I want to do with this life, and make use of whatever knowledge I have to put into use. Of course, my family is still part of my life from time to time. Giving tuitions, teaching them to skate, bringing them out, buying meals for them, sharing tips with them, encourage them, remind them, doing things together...
Only some times, yet the time spent is priceless.
After coaching for a while, I explore other options to enhance on coaching skills. I just felt that something was amiss with my coaching skills. Am I matured enough to impart the skills? I think the greatest impact to my skills was facilitating at Castle Beach which was a great and fun lesson to learn from there. Which I really give thanks to Mr Alvin Lee for introducing other opportunities for my growth and development. I give thanks to the inline skating Head Coach for giving me many opportunities to coach too.
Do forgive me for any mischievous that I brought to you.
Those who do not understand me might have kept guessing about why I seems to be switching jobs for several times thinking I'm a job hopper. That's natural. I was aiming at skating career while doing several jobs. Got it?
And they might have spread untrue rumours about me. And maybe some just curse and swear that I'm exaggerating about what I have gone through.
While we can't stop people from all these. We know ourselves. We know which step we are going to take. It is not for others to manipulate us. Just because they say this and that, we change our mind. Whichever step, continue or give up is really totally up to us. As long as we know why.
I still understand about their ignorance, because I have gone through their stages before. I was young before. I was naive before. I was naughty before. I was playful before even till now. I am still a dreamer...
If you are going to tell me that you know everything in the world when since you were borned, sorry, that's kinda bullsh*tting to me. Unless you are Arhat reborn. Maybe for some you can think better when you were young. Good for you :)
Alright. Busy till end of weekends. Wish all a blissful life.
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